*so tired*
i'm keepin' this short today, lovelies. <3
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the ap test to get into american lit is coming up. hah, like i'm going to be able to take it. it's on a saturday and of course, i can't miss rop. haha it's on the same day as muscatel's cjsf carwash, so they basically just lost a lot of customers. hahaha dumb scrubs. :P
OHMYGOSH, christina's a dork. i just thought you should know. :D <3333333 hahaha she was singing the stupidest thing yesterday. "hush little baby, don't you cry. momma's gonna buy you a pumpkin pie. and if that pumpkin pie don't taste good. mama's gonna buy you some pho." she can flow. she's gonna battle eminem some day. w00t.
*she* was doing it again today - pissing me off and making it just a little bit harder to handle living in this fucked up world. ok, maybe a lot. i guess it's mainly my fault for letting this happen, but it still hurts.
i was at my school's bible study club and they were talking about how you shouldn't lose faith, even when you have so many problems and you hate the person who made you have to suffer all this pain. there's a reason why you have to go through all this. it might not be for you, but it could be for someone else. it could teach them not to go through the path you followed and stuff like that, and that just made me feel a bit better about life. it's like, even though you have to go through all this crap it'll at least make some person's life better, and i hate that people have to go through so much so i just wanted to share that with you all. =)
i saw him today. i knew i was going to walk passed him so i kept working up the courage to say something, anything, just something so i hear his voice so i'll know if he still hates me or not. i kept telling myself over and over again to stop being such an idiot and do SOMETHING. i watched him get closer and closer slowly as if it took hours for him to walk, closed my eyes and took a deep breath, put a serene look on my face while panicking inside....and walked passed him. i couldn't do it. i'm such a dumbfuck, i know. well so is he. it's his damn fault that all this happened. grr.
"you mean the world to me, sweetheart. i'd kill myself before i hurt you."
...so why aren't you dead? =/
*sighs* i'm tired. my sat tutor came today and christina and i as usual panicked when we sat down. haha, it's weird how he does that to us. maybe it's cuz he's so damn smart and i'm so fucking dumb. w00t...
alright i'm off. i have a chemistry benchmark i should really study for, but i really don't have time...and grr i have to do *that thing*, try to read the math book, and help leon & flora set an agenda for the save meeting. grr...headache...i really wanted to go to sleep early tonight. =/
plugs: ashley, katherine, ariele, gahthatscute, sedina, urghyumlick, unrestricted, x_heart, scarydemongrr, astorical, soopadork, martin_, starybarbie03,
the ap test to get into american lit is coming up. hah, like i'm going to be able to take it. it's on a saturday and of course, i can't miss rop. haha it's on the same day as muscatel's cjsf carwash, so they basically just lost a lot of customers. hahaha dumb scrubs. :P
OHMYGOSH, christina's a dork. i just thought you should know. :D <3333333 hahaha she was singing the stupidest thing yesterday. "hush little baby, don't you cry. momma's gonna buy you a pumpkin pie. and if that pumpkin pie don't taste good. mama's gonna buy you some pho." she can flow. she's gonna battle eminem some day. w00t.
*she* was doing it again today - pissing me off and making it just a little bit harder to handle living in this fucked up world. ok, maybe a lot. i guess it's mainly my fault for letting this happen, but it still hurts.
i was at my school's bible study club and they were talking about how you shouldn't lose faith, even when you have so many problems and you hate the person who made you have to suffer all this pain. there's a reason why you have to go through all this. it might not be for you, but it could be for someone else. it could teach them not to go through the path you followed and stuff like that, and that just made me feel a bit better about life. it's like, even though you have to go through all this crap it'll at least make some person's life better, and i hate that people have to go through so much so i just wanted to share that with you all. =)
i saw him today. i knew i was going to walk passed him so i kept working up the courage to say something, anything, just something so i hear his voice so i'll know if he still hates me or not. i kept telling myself over and over again to stop being such an idiot and do SOMETHING. i watched him get closer and closer slowly as if it took hours for him to walk, closed my eyes and took a deep breath, put a serene look on my face while panicking inside....and walked passed him. i couldn't do it. i'm such a dumbfuck, i know. well so is he. it's his damn fault that all this happened. grr.
"you mean the world to me, sweetheart. i'd kill myself before i hurt you."
...so why aren't you dead? =/
*sighs* i'm tired. my sat tutor came today and christina and i as usual panicked when we sat down. haha, it's weird how he does that to us. maybe it's cuz he's so damn smart and i'm so fucking dumb. w00t...
alright i'm off. i have a chemistry benchmark i should really study for, but i really don't have time...and grr i have to do *that thing*, try to read the math book, and help leon & flora set an agenda for the save meeting. grr...headache...i really wanted to go to sleep early tonight. =/