i write in this thing far too much now.
i'm trying to remember how to be happy.. how to just laugh & smile & not give a shit.. i honestly think that if i felt like that again then everything would fall into place. working on my knee would be so much easier, studying would be a lot more fun, i wouldn't give two shits about tim... this all sounds so stupid but my life is exactly like i'm high school all over again because i don't have anything to do or any responsibilities i just hang out everyday, it's completely awkward. i caught myself driving around today singing on the top of my lungs with the sun on my skin & i was completely happy. i want to feel like that all the time. i just wish i knew how