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I feel like i should write something, i'm not exactly sure what, but i feel like its an oppurtune time. Life right now is really stressful, and really complicated. Overall i think i'm happy, but overworked. I want everything to die down and want everything to be less confusing, easier said than done, right? well anyway, im sortta nervous about summer, i don't know if i'm ready to be completely surrounded by theater 24/7, but i guess this will be a good learning experience and i'll see if this is really what i want to do with the rest of my life. I think this summer will forever change me, which is what im scared of most. I'm going to meet new people that i hopefully will keep in contact with forever, but what i'm most nervous about are my friendships that i already have. I want to make the effort to make sure we talk and stay in touch but i know its going to be hard, and i hope i don't lose some people i really care about this summer just because of the distance. I have alot of friends staying in cali, and then some of best gals will be scattered from boston to pittsburg. I don't think i'm lookig into this summer with very optomistic views, which sux, because i'm going to be doing what i love, what's wrong with me? I just can't help but think of everything i'm leaving behind. Change is good, right? and i know everything will work out in the end, but....i can't help being scared to leave. Im really gunna miss some people..like alot, I don't even know how i'm going to survive not talking to them like i do everyday and im also going to miss some things about home, especially my bed(lol)....but anways i know my summer is going to be amzing and i just have to keep reminding myslef of that...right?