Apr 09, 2005 21:22
Hey whats up everyone,
So I was very surprised this weekend. All month I felt like I have been missing a part of me. I couldn't figure out why though. Why did I feel this lonlyness, why could I not find out who or where this was comming from. And this is where Tim came in. Tim said to me that I should "let God into my heart." So I am tring it. I am not making any promises that i will stay with it. I am going into it curious and going to learn everything I can and who knows how I will come out of it.
But that was not what I am surprised about. I was suprised at my parents. Although I always knew that they supported me in whatever decision I made I never knew how they would react to me branching out in terms of religion. Well, guess what, they supported me. They said it was a part of me that I needed to discover for myself no matter what it is. Just as long as I don't become obsest.
I also becasue of it found out about my great grandfather. What I found interesting was that he was a Presbatrian Minister. The other thing I found out was that my parents went though the same thing in terms of discovering out what they wanted to do and who they wanted to be in terms of relgion and expanding. My dad desided it wasn't for him which is totaly cool. But my mom was different she decided she wanted to be a Catholic.
So what does Kate want to do well I think I am finally discovering that. I think that I will ask questions and be prepared for the things that will get in my way. But it is a step in growing up and understanding who I am and if in the end I deside that it isn't right for me then that is my desion.
It made me relize how lucky I was and also the people that I wanted to thank. I would like to thank the people who have supported me. Who didn't shut my ideas and my growing up. I would like to thank my parents for letting me go and for also helping me grow. I hope that what comes out of this is something amazing and something that will help me become hole and discover who I am.
For the people who still need to find there way this is to you. We all go though stuggles, we all go though tough times and we all make mistakes. But you learn from every stuggle every tough time and every mistake. You also learn from experence so just do your selves a favor and just live becasue that is how you find out who you are.
For all the people trying to find there heart this is for you.
Kate