...A mí, me choca la universidad...
I am in a really depressed state right now. I don't have any really good friends like it seems like everyone else does and I'm not making the grades I want to do. I feel like an outcast like I don't even matter to anyone around me, like I'm insignificant. And I got a B in spanish this morning and cried. Yeah, I know a B is "good" but its spanish and ME. WHat the deuce? On top of that I have two deficiencies in Calc and Chem. I just feel like a failure at life, school, and all social situations. Why can't I just have one good friend that I hang out with? Why do I always have to be the lame one in the group? Everybody has cliques and such and I just by myself. I never thought I would miss home so much cuz you guys know how I like being independent but its hard when you don't have anyone to talk to or open up to that knows and understands you. I just feel so hurt like a big chunk of my heart is gone. I guess this is just God preparing and maturing me.