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So right now I'm just pretty much saying fuck the world. That's exactly how I feel right now. Talked to my ex yesterday. Realized that I still liked him....also realized that he has a girlfriend. It really hurt me and just really made me in the mood that I am in now. And it's not because of that but moreso for the fact that I still like him. I'm more hurt at the fact that he said he was a person that when he promised somethin he kept it.....and yet again someone I found to be close enough and serious leaves....that's the disappointing part...that's the part that makes me sad and depressed and feeling like sayin fuck the world. I'm sitting here tryin so fucking hard to be fine and it's not working. I got an organic test in the morning that I'm worried about and that just didn't help me at all. And then the fact that I really need to get my mind settled about one guy that I've been talkin to on and off....like I need to get all that settled like ASAP. I need to free my mind. Because if I'm going to be put down again I might as well get it done while I'm already prepared for the worst.
It never fails....I can't be happy....I've never really felt happy....because everytime I get happy and content then I don't get it for long. I know what I want I know what I need and I get it and it gets taken away from me. No it's not the fact that I need to be in a relationship. I want to be in one but I don't have to be in one. I'm fine just being single. But it's just like going round in a circle. One guy I was talkin to reminded me of my first boyfriend and that's not good. I don't need that in my life again....not how things were. I've been put in predicaments to where my emotions want to take over my body and that's not goin to work. I don't know....I gotta get away.....NOW. im gone...later.
hershey
It never fails....I can't be happy....I've never really felt happy....because everytime I get happy and content then I don't get it for long. I know what I want I know what I need and I get it and it gets taken away from me. No it's not the fact that I need to be in a relationship. I want to be in one but I don't have to be in one. I'm fine just being single. But it's just like going round in a circle. One guy I was talkin to reminded me of my first boyfriend and that's not good. I don't need that in my life again....not how things were. I've been put in predicaments to where my emotions want to take over my body and that's not goin to work. I don't know....I gotta get away.....NOW. im gone...later.
hershey