ok so yea
ha ha i ended up cryin earlier today. and it wasnt a bad thing. it was just i was thinking. well i was listenin to a song by yolanda adams and it made me think...one cuz of it bein a gospel song and of course one of the first things i think bout is my grandmother. well, i was thinkin bout wat momma said yesterday. well yesterday momma and daddy was talkin bout pj and his taxes and stuff like that. well daddy asked when he got back and i was like year b4 last then i had to stop and rethink and momma said i was right cuz its been over a year since grandmomma died. and she kinda stopped and was like..u kno she said she wasnt goin anywhere til pj got back. i had to laugh inside and was just like she knew all along and didnt tell anyone. i mean to think about it seems really somethin to think bout. and thats wat made me cry cuz she knew and she just didnt tell anyone. kinda makes me understand things. kinda makes me understand that she knew wat was goin to happen and just didnt wanna prolong it so thats y she didnt yell for anyone when she fell out the bed. kinda gives me some closure...helps me out a lil bit more so yea. but i like the song tho its a good song it just made me think of her at that moment. just makes me happy that slowly its not as bad anymore...still hard cuz i still have that want of just calin over there and for her to pick up the phone. but the joy of physics and statistics is tomorrow so i must finish stat. homework and get some sleep. later
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