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My entries are always depressing and I apologize.
I'm such a wreck lately. Every day things get worse and it doesn't
seem to be looking up any time soon. I can't find a job, I'm not going
to college, I'm not doing anything. All I do now is take showers or baths
or write or draw and always cry. I cry so much, my eyes continuously feel
hot and heavy and tired. I'm surprised my tear ducts haven't dried up.
Yesterday while laying bed with Tyler I felt nothing but emptiness.
Despite him being right there and his brother and parents being downstairs,
I felt completely alone.
I'm such a wreck lately. Every day things get worse and it doesn't
seem to be looking up any time soon. I can't find a job, I'm not going
to college, I'm not doing anything. All I do now is take showers or baths
or write or draw and always cry. I cry so much, my eyes continuously feel
hot and heavy and tired. I'm surprised my tear ducts haven't dried up.
Yesterday while laying bed with Tyler I felt nothing but emptiness.
Despite him being right there and his brother and parents being downstairs,
I felt completely alone.