We've Got Everything Down to a Science
What would you want me to do? Apologize, again? Tell you how sorry I am for having emotions and wants and needs? Things I've put off for the longest time to make other people happy. To help make everyone else around me complete while I slowly get chipped away at. What on earth would you have me do to make it up to you? Funny thing is you can't answer this question becasue you feel not talking is gonna help. I don't regret anything I've done. That includes helping your best friend dig himself out of a sandtrap at 11:30 at night after not even inviting me out, I still came and fucking helped his sorry ass. Remember. The time when your other stupidass best friend decided to go joy riding drunk and I chased him down and got him out of his goddamn car before something happened. Remember. When I had just had my heart crushed but still came to see your sister get married when all I wanted to do was hate the world and shun any notion of love. Remember. How am I supposed to know how much I meant to you? Maybe I'm ignorant but I never thought I rated as high as those two. Those two who along with you now dislike me, after everything I've done. I cna't stop and apologize to you anymore. No more "sorrys" and "I was wrong". I wasn't. I honestly did care about you and valued our friendship. I even came up to you and told you exactly what had happened which is more than I can say about certain other people. So hate me, be your ideal you in this situation. I'll keep living. With or without you, doesn't matter to me.
Hopefully one day you'll understand.
Hopefully one day you'll understand.