surreal...to say the least
well i am sitting here in the winter cabin at HMC. apparently there is newly installed wireless internet here in the main compound....wild. anyway i am here with family and dogs...mom is knitting, dad is playing the guitar, and the dogs are sitting by the fire. how wonderful...but i am missing brandon so much. we have a christmas tree that is decorated with fishing lures and homemade snowflakes...haha. how warm-and-fuzzy eh?
well the other night i had a horrible thing happen. i dont even believe that it was real. i felt like my life was short circuiting and everything that i held on to was collapsing into nothing. i am still sore from carrying my suitcases from my house to the mobil gas station at long lake and telegraph. my knight in his white horse (well...lumina) came to save me from the cold. i dont even believe how much i love him. i love him so much...now i even know how much. hopefully he knows now...i dunno. i have been wishing on stars every night that he know someday. i hope that day is now.
tomorrow is a scary day for him. i dont know what to think. i am going cross country skiing with the family to mountain stream falls...but i wish i were in bloomfield at the neurosurgeon with b.
i talked a lot to my mom today. she is trying to help me to make the situation better. i dont know what to do. any suggestions people?
well merry christmas...i miss my boulder friends and my brandon so much it is making me ache.
peace love and jolie noel.
well the other night i had a horrible thing happen. i dont even believe that it was real. i felt like my life was short circuiting and everything that i held on to was collapsing into nothing. i am still sore from carrying my suitcases from my house to the mobil gas station at long lake and telegraph. my knight in his white horse (well...lumina) came to save me from the cold. i dont even believe how much i love him. i love him so much...now i even know how much. hopefully he knows now...i dunno. i have been wishing on stars every night that he know someday. i hope that day is now.
tomorrow is a scary day for him. i dont know what to think. i am going cross country skiing with the family to mountain stream falls...but i wish i were in bloomfield at the neurosurgeon with b.
i talked a lot to my mom today. she is trying to help me to make the situation better. i dont know what to do. any suggestions people?
well merry christmas...i miss my boulder friends and my brandon so much it is making me ache.
peace love and jolie noel.