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Aug 12, 2004 00:26

I Love
Tyler Bachelder Phillips
I love him.


May 15, 1988-August 11,2004

I went to church tonight. When I got there there were two emergency helicopters waiting for ambulances. Turns out there was a car accident. With four boys that i knew. Nick was going about 80 or 90 around a big curve didn't see a car coming swerved and lost control. Josh, Tyler, and Bryan were thrown 100 yards from the car as it rolled eight times. All we knew was that Josh was dead, Bryan and Nick were being flown to the hospital and Tyler was in critical condition. My dad drove me and Keith and Katie to the hospital along with a bunch of people from church to see what we could find out. Turns out Bryan broke his hip and his leg but he'll be fine. Nick got scraped up and bloody but he was up walking around. Josh died......So did Tyler.Tyler Phillips was the only one i really knew I had only met the others once. Tyler Phillips was one of my best friends. I can't put Tyler's wonderfullness into a short little journal entry. I don't know words that could tell you how wonderful and funny and lovely he was. He gave the best hugs ever and complained if I didn't give good hugs back. I don't have words that could tell you how great a friend he was and how he made me feel pretty. I miss him terribly. I missed him even before the whole accident. We were supposed to hang out sometime soon we just had to work it out but we can't now because he's dead. I've been sobbing and convulsing all night. I don't know how people or things can function with the loss of Tyler. Everything happy and cheerful is tainted because there will never be a Tyler to be there to laugh with me. Or give me good hugs. I will miss his hugs. This sounds so cheesy but I truly don't know how things can be where they should be without Tyler. Losing Tyler has infected me with this horribly deep sadness that is eating away at my heart and every cell in my body. The other day all I wanted was to grow up and stop being so immature. This is what I get. Yeah you can grow up pretty fast when your friends up and die. This sadness is like cancer. It's eating away at me and I don't know how I'll ever get rid of it knowing I will never see or hug or laugh with my best friend Tyler Phillips.
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