Shattered Pieces (Peter/Niki(Jessica)) Part 4 of ?
Shattered Pieces (Peter/Niki(Jessica)) Part 4 of ?
Title: Shattered Pieces
Rating : PG-13 (possibly)
Pairing : Peter/Niki(Jessica)
Spoilies: Five Years Gone
Summary : Peter runs into a broken Niki's who's mind has broken to the point where reality means nothing any more.
A week went on like this and Peter came to know that Tina was one of the main
reasons Niki was surviving at all. During the week he had gotten to speak to Tina
much and though their introduction had been rocky at best he was seeing in her
the spark Niki used to have. Tina was able to give him more insight into the woman
Niki used to be, and he tells her more of what she had become. Over the week
working together and with Jessica keeping Niki from knowing they had cleaned up a
few of the rooms so that they could remain temporarily there 24/7.
Over the week of constant observation they saw that though Niki had spiraled quite
quickly into her own reality, Jessica was slowly being driven mad herself by Niki
and her forced isolation, as well as her guilt in not being able to protect Niki
enough. It was decided that the next time Jessica was able to gain control they
would start to make plans. Niki and Jessica both despised hospitals so that was
out of the question. The only way they could help would be on their own.
Niki had been complaining since early that morning, about it being too quiet, that
Jessica wasn't speaking to her much. The others realized this was Jessica biding
her strength and time so that they might speak that night. The few minutes they had
spoken to her at the beginning of the week she had attempted to quickly explain how
things worked for her. That it might be possible that lying in wait as she had done
for years even briefly might once again give her an edge to take control for longer.
Her voice had turned fearful at the time as she slipped into her own paranoia of Niki
gaining strength to shut her down for good. She practically begged them to remember
that she was always there listening and watching and to if it didn’t work and she lost
more control of herself to not let her be all alone again, to still speak to her and
try to help her get control again. Over the week, sometimes they had realized the fear
they were seeing in Niki's eyes at time really wasn't her own.
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They had been finishing up dinner when Niki's face suddenly went blank. They were used
to this signal of the change by now but something seemed to be wrong. Enough time had
passed for someone to have exerted control.
Peter moved closer and touched her shoulder hoping for a response. When he got none,
he looked over at Tina nervously. He shook her shoulder hoping to get something out of
her. There wasn't even Niki's normal response of becoming tense. Peter was getting
worried that Jessica's plan had in some way backfired. That the isolation Jessica
decided to do to herself had been the final straw for both of them.
He moved down in front of her looking at her straight in the eyes holding her shoulders,
"Jessica? Are you there?" There was still no response and Peter could hear Tina starting
to pace. He wasn't sure if this was Jessica trying to regain control or if Niki had
suddenly completely gone into her own world.
"Jessica! You said you could hear and see us no matter what. If you are trying to regain
control please give us some way to know because right now we are not sure what is
happening."
There was still no response so Peter called back onto his training. He ran to the draw
Niki kept small odds and ends in and came up with a flashlight. Going back to Niki he
shined it into her eyes hoping for some reaction, but got nothing. Sighing, he put his
head into his hands wondering if they really had lost her.
Being there was nothing he could do for her at the moment he began clearing away the meal
they had been having, carefully taking away the items around Niki. Tina's pacing
behind him was becoming more frantic with worry.
"What? Are you just giving up on her?!" she shouted at Peter.
"There isn't anything we can do. Either Niki finally has shut down completely or Jessica
is having a very hard time gaining control. We knew it was a possibility. She knew it
too. She knew it better then any of us living this way for so long."
"But there must be something we can do...a hospital or something. I know they don't want
it..."
"NO!" Peter said while practically slamming the plates into the sink. "That is the last
thing they would want. They are both terrified of being locked up again. She's just
having a hard time now, we get them into that situation..." Peter trailed off before
continuing. "You know as well as I. Her history, her problems, she'll never get out."
With that Peter walked over to Niki. He pulled on her arm to get her to stand happy to
see at least enough of a reaction of compliance. Whatever made her Niki or Jessica might
be out of commission, but some response was beginning to return. He guided her over to
the bedroom and helped her lie down. He'd been in this situation before, caring for
someone so clearly unresponsive, but this was the first time he had an emotional
attachment to the person. He didn't want to see Niki, or Jessica, this way. And he
wasn't sure which of them would be more affected by awakening after this.
*********
Over the next few days they cared for her. Peter got Tina caught up on how to help
someone in her condition and thru it all they tried to get some response out of her.
They spoke to her both as if she was Niki and as if she was Jessica. They spoke to Niki
of DL and Micah, not caring if bringing her around was just to trade one reality for
another. They spoke to Jessica of how hard they knew it must be, how they knew she was
trying desperately to protect Niki, and if it was easier to give up fighting for control
at the moment to do so, that if she needed to rest she could. That they would not forget
her or Niki that they were there to help both of them still.
After another day of failure they turned in for the night it wasn't much later that a
scream pierced the air and they were in Niki's room faster then either of them thought
possible.
Peter pulled her straight up and looked into her eyes. "Niki!" The screaming didn't
stop. He tried again, "Jessica!" Suddenly some clarity came to her eyes and she seemed
confused and quieted.
Peter relaxed his hold as she looked at him blearily, "You heard me....finally, someone
heard me...I've been screaming for so long."
The sadness in her voice caused Peter to hate himself for agreeing to her plan. "Yes,
Jessica. I hear you now." He could see the relief on her face and her attempting to calm
herself and regain control of herself.
She smiled at him nervously, "That was harder then I expected. I don't think I'll try
that again."
She looked at Tina and nodded her thanks. "Thank you both for keeping your promise and
remembering what I said about being aware even when its Niki."
"So it's been you all this time."
"Yes, You all were...eating I think, when I finally was able to take control...but then
I couldn't respond to you. She kept fighting back. She's very angry, she thinks I'll
hurt Micah or DL again. My disappearing and reappearing has her thinking something from
the past is happening again."
Tina looked over. "That night I first met you..."
"Yes, then when DL took Micah away, it might be in our favor she couldn't fight me as
well then she might not attempt to as much now if she's in that time. So, I guess its
time we had our talk on what to do about our situation."
**************
Title: Shattered Pieces
Rating : PG-13 (possibly)
Pairing : Peter/Niki(Jessica)
Spoilies: Five Years Gone
Summary : Peter runs into a broken Niki's who's mind has broken to the point where reality means nothing any more.
A week went on like this and Peter came to know that Tina was one of the main
reasons Niki was surviving at all. During the week he had gotten to speak to Tina
much and though their introduction had been rocky at best he was seeing in her
the spark Niki used to have. Tina was able to give him more insight into the woman
Niki used to be, and he tells her more of what she had become. Over the week
working together and with Jessica keeping Niki from knowing they had cleaned up a
few of the rooms so that they could remain temporarily there 24/7.
Over the week of constant observation they saw that though Niki had spiraled quite
quickly into her own reality, Jessica was slowly being driven mad herself by Niki
and her forced isolation, as well as her guilt in not being able to protect Niki
enough. It was decided that the next time Jessica was able to gain control they
would start to make plans. Niki and Jessica both despised hospitals so that was
out of the question. The only way they could help would be on their own.
Niki had been complaining since early that morning, about it being too quiet, that
Jessica wasn't speaking to her much. The others realized this was Jessica biding
her strength and time so that they might speak that night. The few minutes they had
spoken to her at the beginning of the week she had attempted to quickly explain how
things worked for her. That it might be possible that lying in wait as she had done
for years even briefly might once again give her an edge to take control for longer.
Her voice had turned fearful at the time as she slipped into her own paranoia of Niki
gaining strength to shut her down for good. She practically begged them to remember
that she was always there listening and watching and to if it didn’t work and she lost
more control of herself to not let her be all alone again, to still speak to her and
try to help her get control again. Over the week, sometimes they had realized the fear
they were seeing in Niki's eyes at time really wasn't her own.
**************
They had been finishing up dinner when Niki's face suddenly went blank. They were used
to this signal of the change by now but something seemed to be wrong. Enough time had
passed for someone to have exerted control.
Peter moved closer and touched her shoulder hoping for a response. When he got none,
he looked over at Tina nervously. He shook her shoulder hoping to get something out of
her. There wasn't even Niki's normal response of becoming tense. Peter was getting
worried that Jessica's plan had in some way backfired. That the isolation Jessica
decided to do to herself had been the final straw for both of them.
He moved down in front of her looking at her straight in the eyes holding her shoulders,
"Jessica? Are you there?" There was still no response and Peter could hear Tina starting
to pace. He wasn't sure if this was Jessica trying to regain control or if Niki had
suddenly completely gone into her own world.
"Jessica! You said you could hear and see us no matter what. If you are trying to regain
control please give us some way to know because right now we are not sure what is
happening."
There was still no response so Peter called back onto his training. He ran to the draw
Niki kept small odds and ends in and came up with a flashlight. Going back to Niki he
shined it into her eyes hoping for some reaction, but got nothing. Sighing, he put his
head into his hands wondering if they really had lost her.
Being there was nothing he could do for her at the moment he began clearing away the meal
they had been having, carefully taking away the items around Niki. Tina's pacing
behind him was becoming more frantic with worry.
"What? Are you just giving up on her?!" she shouted at Peter.
"There isn't anything we can do. Either Niki finally has shut down completely or Jessica
is having a very hard time gaining control. We knew it was a possibility. She knew it
too. She knew it better then any of us living this way for so long."
"But there must be something we can do...a hospital or something. I know they don't want
it..."
"NO!" Peter said while practically slamming the plates into the sink. "That is the last
thing they would want. They are both terrified of being locked up again. She's just
having a hard time now, we get them into that situation..." Peter trailed off before
continuing. "You know as well as I. Her history, her problems, she'll never get out."
With that Peter walked over to Niki. He pulled on her arm to get her to stand happy to
see at least enough of a reaction of compliance. Whatever made her Niki or Jessica might
be out of commission, but some response was beginning to return. He guided her over to
the bedroom and helped her lie down. He'd been in this situation before, caring for
someone so clearly unresponsive, but this was the first time he had an emotional
attachment to the person. He didn't want to see Niki, or Jessica, this way. And he
wasn't sure which of them would be more affected by awakening after this.
*********
Over the next few days they cared for her. Peter got Tina caught up on how to help
someone in her condition and thru it all they tried to get some response out of her.
They spoke to her both as if she was Niki and as if she was Jessica. They spoke to Niki
of DL and Micah, not caring if bringing her around was just to trade one reality for
another. They spoke to Jessica of how hard they knew it must be, how they knew she was
trying desperately to protect Niki, and if it was easier to give up fighting for control
at the moment to do so, that if she needed to rest she could. That they would not forget
her or Niki that they were there to help both of them still.
After another day of failure they turned in for the night it wasn't much later that a
scream pierced the air and they were in Niki's room faster then either of them thought
possible.
Peter pulled her straight up and looked into her eyes. "Niki!" The screaming didn't
stop. He tried again, "Jessica!" Suddenly some clarity came to her eyes and she seemed
confused and quieted.
Peter relaxed his hold as she looked at him blearily, "You heard me....finally, someone
heard me...I've been screaming for so long."
The sadness in her voice caused Peter to hate himself for agreeing to her plan. "Yes,
Jessica. I hear you now." He could see the relief on her face and her attempting to calm
herself and regain control of herself.
She smiled at him nervously, "That was harder then I expected. I don't think I'll try
that again."
She looked at Tina and nodded her thanks. "Thank you both for keeping your promise and
remembering what I said about being aware even when its Niki."
"So it's been you all this time."
"Yes, You all were...eating I think, when I finally was able to take control...but then
I couldn't respond to you. She kept fighting back. She's very angry, she thinks I'll
hurt Micah or DL again. My disappearing and reappearing has her thinking something from
the past is happening again."
Tina looked over. "That night I first met you..."
"Yes, then when DL took Micah away, it might be in our favor she couldn't fight me as
well then she might not attempt to as much now if she's in that time. So, I guess its
time we had our talk on what to do about our situation."
**************