(no subject)
im pretty convinced im not meant to be happy, ever. i must have done something, some massive grave error a one point in my life because everytime things get going well, everytime things are going my way - life is going good something comes along and takes it all away from me.....i cant take this anymore. i cannot stand this agonizing emptiness. its been a constand uphill battle for well over a year and a half now.....i take it all time and time and time and time again, and when something good comes, some ray of sunshine to light my way the clouds circle up again and let the rain pour all over me, yet again. please god just let everything end. im sick of this, there is no goal, no lesson, nothing to learn or gain from all of this. to think otherwise would be foolish. "god only gives so much as they can handle" well ill tell you right now my limit has long been exceeded and i am through.....ive been patient time and time again...just take it all away. please, im done with all of this. with everything. i dont want any of the supporting words someone would tell me time and time again, i dont need the bullshit. just please take it all away. let it end.....grant me some peace, finally. im sick of constantly feeling this way.....