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gotta not take shit so personally. i feel like i am pretty good at it most of the time. but then something happens and i don't know if i should let myself be upset and if it is self demeaning to not take it personally. it isn't right to not be treated well. at the same time, sometimes it doesn't benefit anything if you bring shit up, or make something a bigger deal, or a deal at all, even if it deserves to be a deal, or a big deal. gah my brain.
it is cold out. so cold. and i want to be in his bed, warm. but instead i am in good old eugene. good old fucking eugene. a bottle of wine would do me good right about now. At least if i were not here, i know i could be warm in his bed.
so leda, i think it is time to come back. yeah? yeah! i thought you would agree.
i miss this house, and this cat, and these smells, and the stability it all reminds me of. i want it back. maybe not those specific times, but i want to stability back. i love this family and i love what i had here with them, not just asa face, but all of them.
tomorrow i need to take portrait photos, and somehow i either have to bring ani with me or figure out what to do with her, i think it might be weird to bring her along cos the content might not be so good for her to see. ugh.
it is cold out. so cold. and i want to be in his bed, warm. but instead i am in good old eugene. good old fucking eugene. a bottle of wine would do me good right about now. At least if i were not here, i know i could be warm in his bed.
so leda, i think it is time to come back. yeah? yeah! i thought you would agree.
i miss this house, and this cat, and these smells, and the stability it all reminds me of. i want it back. maybe not those specific times, but i want to stability back. i love this family and i love what i had here with them, not just asa face, but all of them.
tomorrow i need to take portrait photos, and somehow i either have to bring ani with me or figure out what to do with her, i think it might be weird to bring her along cos the content might not be so good for her to see. ugh.