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seriously, what am i gonna do?
i don't want this to be something i worry about and stress over, but it just happens whether or not i desire it. so many people are making all these plans, i hear about it everywhere. and i obviously have to have some fairly specific idea.
after grad. i'm just thinking a lot about where i'm going to be. location, wise. i love seattle and i'm so happy i came to school here, but i've never lived anywhere besides various cities around washington. i need some different culture. or different anything. but i really LIKE it here. and i think it most definitely takes a while (for me at least) to discover all the cool things about a city so that you can appreciate it accordingly. but i can't plan my whole life right now and where i'll live. maybe i want to end up in seattle, but i want to be here now too. when i'm kinda young, you know? and what if i go to like, Boston and then something happens and i end up living there forever?
also though, i'm not really big on picking up and going somewhere by myself. well, come on. and no one is on the same page as i am with their plans. megs is pretty much packed to move back to cali, crystal has her young life commitment here, amanda's staying here to work, the list goes on. summer, what are you doing? i mean, if i'm this confident, i'm sure you have something mapped out.
i gotta see some of the world. and i wanna do some sort of missions-type trip. i NEED to. i want to AND i need to.
i've always put so much importance on my relationships instead of going and DOING and seeing things and places. and i still feel so strongly that way but also know that i have regrets of amazing things i could have done by now. and want to go do. guh. so yeah, life is long. i have time for amazing relationships later. i also have time for doing all that stuff? but i won't, will i? shit. shit shit.
life is kinda hard to do sometimes.
well, speculation is just necessary on occasion...
p.s. meg and i drank what i liken to soup concentrate the other night
another: two guys commented on my chanel earrings that same night. one asked if they were gucci and i said they were chanel and he was like "ohhh, i see how you roll" in an annoying way. puh-lease. you see me with one tiny designer item and suddenly that's my defining characteristic? i mean, that's fine with me cause i think they kick ass, but don't be all huffy. the other one knew what they were and said he liked 'em. i think. i can't really remember. either way, i was amused.
finally: my boss' husband died. sad. what can i do that's appropriate? it's kinda tough
i don't want this to be something i worry about and stress over, but it just happens whether or not i desire it. so many people are making all these plans, i hear about it everywhere. and i obviously have to have some fairly specific idea.
after grad. i'm just thinking a lot about where i'm going to be. location, wise. i love seattle and i'm so happy i came to school here, but i've never lived anywhere besides various cities around washington. i need some different culture. or different anything. but i really LIKE it here. and i think it most definitely takes a while (for me at least) to discover all the cool things about a city so that you can appreciate it accordingly. but i can't plan my whole life right now and where i'll live. maybe i want to end up in seattle, but i want to be here now too. when i'm kinda young, you know? and what if i go to like, Boston and then something happens and i end up living there forever?
also though, i'm not really big on picking up and going somewhere by myself. well, come on. and no one is on the same page as i am with their plans. megs is pretty much packed to move back to cali, crystal has her young life commitment here, amanda's staying here to work, the list goes on. summer, what are you doing? i mean, if i'm this confident, i'm sure you have something mapped out.
i gotta see some of the world. and i wanna do some sort of missions-type trip. i NEED to. i want to AND i need to.
i've always put so much importance on my relationships instead of going and DOING and seeing things and places. and i still feel so strongly that way but also know that i have regrets of amazing things i could have done by now. and want to go do. guh. so yeah, life is long. i have time for amazing relationships later. i also have time for doing all that stuff? but i won't, will i? shit. shit shit.
life is kinda hard to do sometimes.
well, speculation is just necessary on occasion...
p.s. meg and i drank what i liken to soup concentrate the other night
another: two guys commented on my chanel earrings that same night. one asked if they were gucci and i said they were chanel and he was like "ohhh, i see how you roll" in an annoying way. puh-lease. you see me with one tiny designer item and suddenly that's my defining characteristic? i mean, that's fine with me cause i think they kick ass, but don't be all huffy. the other one knew what they were and said he liked 'em. i think. i can't really remember. either way, i was amused.
finally: my boss' husband died. sad. what can i do that's appropriate? it's kinda tough