jebus please smite these heathans....
so, everyday that i wake up to this town.....i think of how empty it is getting more and more everyday....its fall, people are leaving, going to school, moving away to get a job, traveling, and expirencing life like human beings should. and i sit back, work at a coffee shop, keep saying that im gunna go to school but havn't gotten off my ass yet to go attend a class yet, and wonder "am i ever gunna go anywhere?" .....i often think of that song by incubus, "nowhere fast"....the writter, brandon boyed, simpley askes "Will i ever get to where im going?....and if i do will i know when i am there?.....if the wind blew me in the right direction .....would i even care?" now guys this isnt me being pesamistic....its me wondering about the other side of things...everyone has a plan, and not all plans work out...but its like....where do u even begin to start replanning things....who even has the energy to do this ongoing shit...am i really in the right place right now?.....i don't even know if i feel like im in the right place...i can't feel anything about my future....cuz i always was convinced when i look forward to somthing it never happens....wow everyone was completly right about this, once u get out of high school, its like u open the biggest door of ur life....and u have no idea where to start looking, touching, feeling....i just don't know....it was safer in high schoool.....u had life planned there, wake up at 8:30, go learn, have lunch, learn more, go home, do homework ,get drunk....have pre marital sex....and possibly get knocked up.....and repeat.....this is deffinatly a change....oh well....i guess as i always say, life is like surfing on a phat wave.....somtimes the waves get nuts, but u gotta keep riding them....cuz the wave will die down, and everything is smooth sailing from there, to the sand....