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I don't know how I've gone so long without updating. Seems like now, of all times, I should be way too busy/stressed to even attempt it. After all, haven't I been trying to update more often all summer? *sigh*. Band camp has been great, don't get me wrong. I'm so proud of the flutes! Well, there are a few little disputes but as long as certain people realize that the leadership isn't going to change because she doesn't like it, things will go more smoothly. It's just everything all compounding I guess. I haven't seen Tom since last Saturday and he hasn't called since Monday. Three months have come and gone so fast. Then there's like a major family crisis... My Aunt Susan died Friday. I found out when my dad picked me up from band. I haven't relaly been around anyone since it happened, and I definetly haven't talked about it or how I feel about it. Too complicated. And so, my mum is up in NY trying to get the funeral squared away and working on paying off the house so that Jamie (my cousin, who is now essentially family-less other than us) can have a place to live while she's going to school. And then there's the fact that she barely makes enough to get by as it is, and on top of that she has to pay tuition. And Julie's started having seizures again. I think it's because Mommy's gone. She had 3 between 10 Saturday night and 4 this afternoon. That's really bad. I told Daddy to take her to the vet tmorrow. I wish she could have gone today, but it was a Sunday, and no doctor was on duty. i just wsh everything would suddenly get easier ya know?
The world as I know it is collapsing around my ears.
The world as I know it is collapsing around my ears.