Help! Someone, Anyone?

Aug 11, 2009 22:13

I officially hate my life.

After putting up with all of my Dad's shit for almost 21 years it's come to him getting into a car accident and going to jail for being drunk for my mother to finally decide it's time for a divorce.  I can't believe she didn't ditch him after catching him with drugs six months ago.  I'm so thankful that my college education is paid for because this is definitely going to put a strain on mom's finances.  I'm going to lose everything that means something to me.  Mom's already said we won't be able to keep the house, not that my asshole of a father would let us if he could.  I've lived here for 10 years and having to see it all disappear cuts me to the core. I don't know what to do, I can't seem to find the strength to stop crying.  And it's not even crying for him, it crying because I'm losing everything at an age where things should be a lot more stable.  If only this could have happened when I was little.  Forgetting bad things like this is so much easier when you're little.

I don't know what I need right now, but I know I need something.  I know there won't be any sleep tonight and if my body does surrender it will be restless sleep. 
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