I am going IN FREAKING SANE.
I am seriously going insane. I'm normally not like this, but all I can think about right now is I need to do something. All I do anymore is Work and play practice. Work and play practice. I never do anything with my friends anymore, I haven't seen Lora all summer, and I havent seen Olivia since Pirates got over. Melissa I've seen like twice.
I am going to snap and go do something stupid and reckless soon if this doesn't stop. Lately I've been considering, like seriously considering things I would never normally do. I have always hated people who do these things, and now I"m not thinking it's so bad. My mom keeps me locked in the house whenever I'm not at work or practice. I've asked her three times if I can do something after practice, all decent things with good people, but she tells me that I'll "Be too tired in the morning for work." or that they're gone and they don't want me out then. Don't you think I know my own boundaries?! I know how much sleep I have to get, and I know what I should and shouldn't do. I am a good girl. But I am going to become a bad one and do horrible things if this keeps up. I wish my parents would just trust me more. The only times I enjoy having parents anymore is when they're gone and it's just me and my sister.
I am a whiney girl and I hate myself for it.
I am going to snap and go do something stupid and reckless soon if this doesn't stop. Lately I've been considering, like seriously considering things I would never normally do. I have always hated people who do these things, and now I"m not thinking it's so bad. My mom keeps me locked in the house whenever I'm not at work or practice. I've asked her three times if I can do something after practice, all decent things with good people, but she tells me that I'll "Be too tired in the morning for work." or that they're gone and they don't want me out then. Don't you think I know my own boundaries?! I know how much sleep I have to get, and I know what I should and shouldn't do. I am a good girl. But I am going to become a bad one and do horrible things if this keeps up. I wish my parents would just trust me more. The only times I enjoy having parents anymore is when they're gone and it's just me and my sister.
I am a whiney girl and I hate myself for it.