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I'm feeling really down. I got in a car accident on Monday. A woman ran a stop sign and I t-boned her because I had the right away w/o any stop sign and I couldn't stop in time. I've been without a car since because my air bags deployed and odds are they are going to total my car. I'm not 25 so I can't get a rental, and her insurance might not cover one for me. I live in my car. I commute to school and three jobs daily. I'm over being angry about it. Now I just feel overwhelmingly sad. I missed classes on Tuesday to go clean my car out (the only time I could get a ride) and I feel guilty about that. I hate depending on people for rides (even though my friends have been great. thanks guys!). And on Tuesday my blood work came back positive for mono. Who gets mono at 21 yrs old? I feel so high school/gross. It does explain a lot of how I have been feeling for weeks now. I don't want to sound whinny but when it rains it pours. Just not a good week. I've also been thinking a lot about what I want in the future and I feel so trapped because my lease isn't up until the end of August. I guess it gives me time to decide what I want to do after graduation. The only thing I feel really conclusive on is my desire to go back to Europe. I could put my things in storage and leave sept 1 (when all the tourists are gone) and just dick around for a couple of months and be home for the holidays. Only thing is, I don't know anyone over there. Not a soul. So that makes things difficult. I don't know. Like any of that would ever happen.
Yaaa piss and moan post. Overall, life...not so hot.
Yaaa piss and moan post. Overall, life...not so hot.