JUST KIDDING!
Ok, SCRATCH that last entry -- JUST KIDDING (!!!)
I got way ahead of myself. He sent me pink roses telling me he hoped that I felt better soon. That is, probably, the sweetest thing a guy has ever done for me. I like him alot... but...
I dunno... I just know there's a 'but'....
I noticed I jump ahead of myself too fast and that's why I get shot down. I set myself up for my own downfall. So, I'm going to teach myself to take baby steps... let life do it's toll on me. If it's meant to be, it will be.
...everything happens for a reason, sometimes things fall apart just so other things can fall together...but in the end, whats meant to be will always find its way.
Saturday was a bad night. An emotional train wreck. All I know is by the time I went on break at work, I had to get out of the store and resort to my car. So, I'm sitting in my car with the windows down and the sunroof open and radio on playing Led Zepplin and my car is facing the horizon and the sun was starting to set... and it was me, that song on the radio, that sun, and that slight breeze blowing in on me... it was the most peaceful thing ever, and I can't even explain why. I just felt so calm. Then I had to go back to reality.
It's one in the morning and I'm bored as fuck.
SpRiNg BrEaK '06-- fuck yea, man! --- SIKE.
I think this will be my last public entry, I just don't trust anyone anymore.
He told me tonight that I make him laugh and that's what he likes most about me. I haven't had this much fun talking to someone in such a long time. He lets me be the silly, random Jess...that I haven't been in so long. I like that, I like it when I'm around people that I can be like that with. There's only two other people that have ever made me feel that way. And I've lost both of them. And one, was because I was an idiot.
Ok, I'm done. I'm gonna upload some pictures on my laptop and go to bed.
xoxo
I got way ahead of myself. He sent me pink roses telling me he hoped that I felt better soon. That is, probably, the sweetest thing a guy has ever done for me. I like him alot... but...
I dunno... I just know there's a 'but'....
I noticed I jump ahead of myself too fast and that's why I get shot down. I set myself up for my own downfall. So, I'm going to teach myself to take baby steps... let life do it's toll on me. If it's meant to be, it will be.
...everything happens for a reason, sometimes things fall apart just so other things can fall together...but in the end, whats meant to be will always find its way.
Saturday was a bad night. An emotional train wreck. All I know is by the time I went on break at work, I had to get out of the store and resort to my car. So, I'm sitting in my car with the windows down and the sunroof open and radio on playing Led Zepplin and my car is facing the horizon and the sun was starting to set... and it was me, that song on the radio, that sun, and that slight breeze blowing in on me... it was the most peaceful thing ever, and I can't even explain why. I just felt so calm. Then I had to go back to reality.
It's one in the morning and I'm bored as fuck.
SpRiNg BrEaK '06-- fuck yea, man! --- SIKE.
I think this will be my last public entry, I just don't trust anyone anymore.
He told me tonight that I make him laugh and that's what he likes most about me. I haven't had this much fun talking to someone in such a long time. He lets me be the silly, random Jess...that I haven't been in so long. I like that, I like it when I'm around people that I can be like that with. There's only two other people that have ever made me feel that way. And I've lost both of them. And one, was because I was an idiot.
Ok, I'm done. I'm gonna upload some pictures on my laptop and go to bed.
xoxo