Goodbyes..
On the way home today from work I was thinking about what it's going to be like to say bye to everyone when I leave here...it'll be the hardest thing in this world to do. Today on break, I was just sitting there thinking... am I really making the right decision? This is my life, these are my choices...it's just a matter if I really am making the right choice. My mind is telling me one thing, and my heart is telling me another. I tell UNCC in the beginning of March that they are my final decision and that I really will be attending. I'm scared to death and at the same time I'm excited as fuck. I think, for the first time, I'm just scared of the unknown. It's just hard for my mind to comprehend the fact that only in a few months will my whole entire little world be taking a HUGE, FAST spin and everything will be completely changed.
People keep asking me if I'll come back to GA to live and I honestly don't know. I don't know what it's like in North Carolina yet, I don't know what it will be like. Give me a year and ask me again. I know for fact I will be able to give you a definate yes or no.
I hate nights like these... I have way too many things on my mind and if I could I'd just curl up in my bed and go to sleep. But I have so much to do before that can happen.
I forgot to mention that I got a thing in the mail today from UNCC telling about an ADVANTAGE program they have set up in the summer. It starts July 10 to July 28. You can take two classes that are worth 6 credits towards my degree, that I will not have to take in the fall. It gives you a chance to get ahead, and get used to the campus and "college life".
I told my Dad about it...all he said was "dont rush me"...He doesn't want to say bye to me, but he has gotta let me go. I haven't decided if I'll do this program yet or not. I'd have to stay with some friends, if I did, and I'd need to get a job somewhere. Maybe I could get a head start on everything if I do this in the summer, so then I won't have to stress in the fall with looking for a job and I'll have a taste of what college is like before it even begins.
I would come back to visit for Erica's birthday though. And I'd come back a few days in August to offically pack all of my things. This is something I'm seriously debating on doing.
Keep you guys posted on what I decide...I have an essay I need to write...UGH.
People keep asking me if I'll come back to GA to live and I honestly don't know. I don't know what it's like in North Carolina yet, I don't know what it will be like. Give me a year and ask me again. I know for fact I will be able to give you a definate yes or no.
I hate nights like these... I have way too many things on my mind and if I could I'd just curl up in my bed and go to sleep. But I have so much to do before that can happen.
I forgot to mention that I got a thing in the mail today from UNCC telling about an ADVANTAGE program they have set up in the summer. It starts July 10 to July 28. You can take two classes that are worth 6 credits towards my degree, that I will not have to take in the fall. It gives you a chance to get ahead, and get used to the campus and "college life".
I told my Dad about it...all he said was "dont rush me"...He doesn't want to say bye to me, but he has gotta let me go. I haven't decided if I'll do this program yet or not. I'd have to stay with some friends, if I did, and I'd need to get a job somewhere. Maybe I could get a head start on everything if I do this in the summer, so then I won't have to stress in the fall with looking for a job and I'll have a taste of what college is like before it even begins.
I would come back to visit for Erica's birthday though. And I'd come back a few days in August to offically pack all of my things. This is something I'm seriously debating on doing.
Keep you guys posted on what I decide...I have an essay I need to write...UGH.