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I had a dream last night, and you were in it. It was like I went back in the past in my dreams, it was night and we snuck out of your house and we couldn't stop laughing. It was so realistic.
There's days when I wish I could just walk up to you and beg to be fully forgiven and for it all be 'right' again and to cry and hug you. Then there's days where I pretend to not let it bother me, pretend I can't hear you talking, pretend I can't hear you laughing, just because it seems easier to deal with. There are still times I see you in the hall and reality hits me like a huge smack in the face and a kick in the stomach.
I used to know who I truly was, and ever since you walked out of my life I can't figure me out anymore.
For the past twenty minutes I've been going through old pictures on my computer and keep watching those little 2 minute movies we made when you spent the night one time and it made me smile...
it still hurts.
When you get what you want, but not what you need
The tears come streaming down your face
when you lose something you can't replace.
There's days when I wish I could just walk up to you and beg to be fully forgiven and for it all be 'right' again and to cry and hug you. Then there's days where I pretend to not let it bother me, pretend I can't hear you talking, pretend I can't hear you laughing, just because it seems easier to deal with. There are still times I see you in the hall and reality hits me like a huge smack in the face and a kick in the stomach.
I used to know who I truly was, and ever since you walked out of my life I can't figure me out anymore.
For the past twenty minutes I've been going through old pictures on my computer and keep watching those little 2 minute movies we made when you spent the night one time and it made me smile...
it still hurts.
When you get what you want, but not what you need
The tears come streaming down your face
when you lose something you can't replace.