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To all i have hurt, said things to, or put down, through my stupidities, that i truly do love, u know who u are sorry, weakness and stupidity come in many forms, and no excuses, but i ask for forgiveness. As to those who i told off, and meant every word of it, trust my buddy, i still mean it. Many people have no the slightest idea about tru friendship. And i am not about to say that i do. But i have one clear example, and she knows who she is. This person, well for me love doesn't even sum it up, and i am constantly annoying her, pissing her off, and yet, in my darkest hour, she is right there by my side, never leaving me. And she is not the only one, nor the last, but funny thing, isn't it. She is always by my side, no matter wut i have to go through. This is the essence of tru friendship. A concept many ppl have lost sight of. Friendship is unconditional, not o well lets c, i need this from u, so let me get close to u, and then tell u to fuck off when i don't need u. This person has thought me alot, and changed me for the better, in so many ways i can't even begin to describe. And i try to be there for her, but i understand she has a trust thing, hell through all the bs she has to put up with, i'm surprised she has still the heart to care. But why woudln't she, by far one of the ppl with the biggest hearts ever. Right now, i just feel like, well, everything aroudn me is falling apart, and no need to drown me with the questions of " o whats wrong" trust me i would have told u already. I have told no one, except two ppl, one well, i think shes one step away form totaly slapping the hell out of alot of ppl, and cristi, hell go for it girl, even if i'll be recieving one of those.lol. And then this person, who i've been reffering to. She knows who she is. lol.
But damn, i am sick of, sick of the drama, the bickering, the stupid "highschool shit" that plagues our very exsitence in this school environment, I am in fault of alot of things, trust me, and especially to these two, I love u guys, but lets say in my blindness, and sorrow, i have come to understand a couple of things. Tru friendship is not a popularity thing, its a feeling. Its taking al the bs, all the fights and anger, and when the tiem comes, a time where should put down that person, and tell them to fuck off u don't, u r there for them. Love, in all its forms, means giving everything for the others happiness. Most of us go throug life, and we just do wuts best for us, not sitting down and lookgin at wuts around u. But do i might be an asshole, and through all my bad faults, atleast i can say for sure, i have one good quality, i have recognized my mistakes... my faults... Now more than ever, i look at what has been gained and also wut i hav lost. Through my life, i ahe gone through ruff times, and hardships, but now i noticed something, b4 i felt alone, when i had ppl, now its funny, she knows who she is, has thought me that she still listen to me, and comfort me no matter wut. And now, to everyone cut the bs guys, the years of our lives that our "the funnest years of out lives" we are wasting away with drama, and bs. I am going to try to mature, and forget drama, and treat those who show me love, with the same love. I thank God for what i have, and ask him to not take away anything i have, even do i know his will must be done. But i trust in him, and i figure things will get better, ima try to change, and If i can change, and u can change, we can all change. And to this person, hopefully she comments, thnx. For everything, for never leaving me, having ample opportunity to do so, and showing me wut tru friendship is. THANK U.
But damn, i am sick of, sick of the drama, the bickering, the stupid "highschool shit" that plagues our very exsitence in this school environment, I am in fault of alot of things, trust me, and especially to these two, I love u guys, but lets say in my blindness, and sorrow, i have come to understand a couple of things. Tru friendship is not a popularity thing, its a feeling. Its taking al the bs, all the fights and anger, and when the tiem comes, a time where should put down that person, and tell them to fuck off u don't, u r there for them. Love, in all its forms, means giving everything for the others happiness. Most of us go throug life, and we just do wuts best for us, not sitting down and lookgin at wuts around u. But do i might be an asshole, and through all my bad faults, atleast i can say for sure, i have one good quality, i have recognized my mistakes... my faults... Now more than ever, i look at what has been gained and also wut i hav lost. Through my life, i ahe gone through ruff times, and hardships, but now i noticed something, b4 i felt alone, when i had ppl, now its funny, she knows who she is, has thought me that she still listen to me, and comfort me no matter wut. And now, to everyone cut the bs guys, the years of our lives that our "the funnest years of out lives" we are wasting away with drama, and bs. I am going to try to mature, and forget drama, and treat those who show me love, with the same love. I thank God for what i have, and ask him to not take away anything i have, even do i know his will must be done. But i trust in him, and i figure things will get better, ima try to change, and If i can change, and u can change, we can all change. And to this person, hopefully she comments, thnx. For everything, for never leaving me, having ample opportunity to do so, and showing me wut tru friendship is. THANK U.