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it makes me feel useless. it makes me feel dumb.
it makes me feel handicapped.
bad enough that i have a whole load of things playing in my mind, but things dont seem to be getting better. bad enough i refrain myself from crumbling every single day cause i convince myself that all this heartache that i go through each day missing you will all be worth it in the end. each day i see pictures, of my friends with their partners, doing day to day activities together.. and i want it so bad to spend almost everyday with you. but i always shove those silliy thoughts aside.. cause i remember what you always tell me, 'we chose this so we shall never give up easily.'
all this pain i go through, i hope it'll be worth it in the end. i hope it will. i was never a strong girl, but i am staying strong for this, figting to still stand tall because i have never loved anyone the way i love you.
and they always say, the ones who hurt you most are the ones you love most. cause if i dont love you, i wont friggin care about you.
i may not be the most perfect girl around, but i tried for you. im sorry if i cant remove my flaws. ):
but i promise you one thing, despite all my flaws... and all my imperfections, you can never find someone who love you like i do. and i'll do anything for ur happiness, even if it means that ...
i am not part of it ):