I really really really wanna see you die!!!!

[hereticmanican]

dry kill logic is the shit, just got a bunch of new music, im about 9 or 10 hours short of a full week of music on my computer, frankly im ashamed i haven't long since passed a mere 7 days of music, whatever...money troubles, the troubles being i need to pay rent and bills next week, and i have total maybe $300 which won't even cover rent, fuck, oh well, odd lately, a lot of things have just been sort-of working themselves out... still have yet to recieve any attention from the opposite sex as of late, at least as far as i can tell, got my paper license, taking my car in for inspection tomorrow -crosses fingers- sometime soon a check for $3000 should be showing up, for rent, bills, food, and a drum rack, so that at the next heresy show my cymbal stands won't fall off the stage onto scok like at the last show, getting 2 new roommates, ben's friend james, and his g/f steph, for now james is gonna be an occupant and as far as the apartment complex is concerned stephanie is just here a lot, this will sort itself out in the becoming fully legal sometime in fall, b/c kevin, last i hear, has plans to move out...still waiting for a call back from national airport about an interview for a job, i guess one day i should call them and sort of remind them im still interested, but i suck at talking on the phone to people that i don't really know, i dont' know why im just incredibly umcomfortable, it's kinda funny, even when they're people i do know i don't really like talking on the phone to them, except for when i haven't talked to them in forever, or if it's a certain person, i.e. teresa, aaaaaaanyway, i don't think there's any point to this, i just haven't posted in forever, and i needed to sort of dump this shit out, and im tired blah

A broken man that
waits to die
it's no good, but i
wonder why
you have left me here
my pride
forgave
...
RISE
...
Give up, Give in, Lie down
i never will
...
As i lay
how i've dreamed
of this day
all the things i thought
i would say
now all i can do
is pray
and wait
...
RISE
...
Give up, Give in, Lie down
i never will
...
Crucified
i alone lay here
my pride
forgave
...
...
RISE
...
Give up, Give in, Lie down
i never will
never will.