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this morning i woke up in misery fought through it into ecstacy it slipped away again madness just madness, well the demons ate my soul so fucking what theres no end to the light the light of the universe is boundless ill borrow some of that light and some safety pins and duct tape and patchwork things and make a new soul i will have control i will exist i will exist i am going to make it to new orleans the spirit bats will find me the starpeople will help me i trust them om krim kaliai namah om krim kaliai namah Goddess of the stars Goddess of the Heavens dont abandon me dont leave me to this misery dear merciful God help me im trying to do the right thing i always tried to do the right thing but all i have left is broken wings and a bleeding heart that wont stop fighting even after everything is completely obliterated and decimated and desolated. fucking god damnit why cant i just be a fucking person be a fucking human being im so sick of this shit. give me colors give me a whirlwind of color and sound ill shatter this madness to pieces ill pick up the pieces .