You can have it all, My empire of dirt...................
Ok so I have not updated in a while, I've been busy. As i write this depression sinks in once again. Why does this feeling not go away, ,its like its always there even on the best days. I think im starting to feed off my own depression, and that Scares me. Got tickets to the wraith release party, so thats good. Today was quite odd though. The thing that really sticks out though is that jasmin needs money to go see adam, a friend of hers. Well she said that she didnt want to ask me because I know the way that she feels twords him, but if it makes her happy then im happy. I just remember what my old teacher told me "you are the sum of you own dessicions". If i dont trust her how can she trust me? Besides that I feel like the sky has parted and everyone around me has gone away. At night I cant help but feel lonely and helpless. but maybe thats what Im ment to do. If it was up to me i would catch the nearest flight to nowhere and live my last days alone, because thats all i feel at night when im in my room. Sum of my own dessicions, yeah right.
