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Okay I know that the life of Cassandra Curran isn't all that interesting but I thought I would give you guys an update.
So Friday I went to swear in to the Air Force. Yeah I know I'm too cute to go through basic training but it happens (no seriously a guy that I work with said that to me, it was a little weird). So I don't know when I leave but I'm thinking the sooner the better at this point. I'll try to get over my fear of calling people so I won't lose touch with all the important people in my life. I have all my jobs lined up (just in case one isn't available for me) and I'm soooo hoping I can be the spy one.
In other news I think I'm going to break up with my boyfriend (God I hope he doesn't get a hold of this). It's not that I don't love him anymore because I do but the love that I feel for him is more like a brother than anything. It scares me to death to lose him because he's one of my best friends but I don't know what to do. I was going to wait until he breaks up with me but I don't think I can do it. And you know this isn't like other boyfriends where I just got really fed up with them and refused to talk to them it's different. I mean I still want to have a relationship with him just not the one that we have right now. Maybe it's the distance but that's never going to change, no matter what we do.
My life is falling in to place but at the same time it's falling apart. I know that this is the right decision for me and I know that if it means that I lose the man that I thought was the love of my life, I'll still have to do it. This is the hardest boyfriend I've ever had to break up with.
So Friday I went to swear in to the Air Force. Yeah I know I'm too cute to go through basic training but it happens (no seriously a guy that I work with said that to me, it was a little weird). So I don't know when I leave but I'm thinking the sooner the better at this point. I'll try to get over my fear of calling people so I won't lose touch with all the important people in my life. I have all my jobs lined up (just in case one isn't available for me) and I'm soooo hoping I can be the spy one.
In other news I think I'm going to break up with my boyfriend (God I hope he doesn't get a hold of this). It's not that I don't love him anymore because I do but the love that I feel for him is more like a brother than anything. It scares me to death to lose him because he's one of my best friends but I don't know what to do. I was going to wait until he breaks up with me but I don't think I can do it. And you know this isn't like other boyfriends where I just got really fed up with them and refused to talk to them it's different. I mean I still want to have a relationship with him just not the one that we have right now. Maybe it's the distance but that's never going to change, no matter what we do.
My life is falling in to place but at the same time it's falling apart. I know that this is the right decision for me and I know that if it means that I lose the man that I thought was the love of my life, I'll still have to do it. This is the hardest boyfriend I've ever had to break up with.