vidding + dayjob = unmixy things
The good:
Premiere and AfterEffects CS4 are now installed on my computer. Better yet, they're working with AviSynth, thanks to a pointer from absolutedestiny, aka Best Vid Tech Support Ever. Also, I have the Trek!Reboot DVD.
The bad:
I have grading to do. So. much. grading.
The ugly:
The smart part of my brain knows that I should finish this grading so I can hand everything back tomorrow and thus have a long weekend that features neither grading nor guilt about not grading. The less-smart part of my brain is making metaphorical grabby hands at the computer and DVD and saying "viiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiid."
My impulse control re: vidding has been remarkably solid for about three months now. But today that impulse control appears to be shot, and so I have ended up doing that thing I occasionally do where I won't let myself vid because there's other stuff I should be doing, except I can't bring myself to do the other stuff because I want to be vidding, and so essentially I sit around all day wasting time and accomplishing nothing. Telling myself that I can vid for FIVE DAYS STRAIGHT starting tomorrow evening? Not working! The smart brain is no longer in charge!
I am occasionally amazed that I made it through college, much less grad school, because - as terrifying as this is to contemplate - my impulse control actually used to be worse, and by worse I mean a lot worse, and when you combine that with my focus problems, which also used to be worse... well. The only explanation is that I really did love what I was doing and mostly wanted to be doing it.
Whereas I hate grading. I like pretty much everything else about teaching, including responding to student work, because my students are generally delightful and their work is pretty interesting; but for all that I joke about being mean and judgmental professionally and for money, I am not a big fan of grades, and even less a fan of having to justify grades, which is of course the tendency when commenting on written work.
And even if I minded grading a good deal less than I do? Right at this moment, I'd still rather be vidding.
In conclusion, ARGH.
Premiere and AfterEffects CS4 are now installed on my computer. Better yet, they're working with AviSynth, thanks to a pointer from absolutedestiny, aka Best Vid Tech Support Ever. Also, I have the Trek!Reboot DVD.
The bad:
I have grading to do. So. much. grading.
The ugly:
The smart part of my brain knows that I should finish this grading so I can hand everything back tomorrow and thus have a long weekend that features neither grading nor guilt about not grading. The less-smart part of my brain is making metaphorical grabby hands at the computer and DVD and saying "viiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiid."
My impulse control re: vidding has been remarkably solid for about three months now. But today that impulse control appears to be shot, and so I have ended up doing that thing I occasionally do where I won't let myself vid because there's other stuff I should be doing, except I can't bring myself to do the other stuff because I want to be vidding, and so essentially I sit around all day wasting time and accomplishing nothing. Telling myself that I can vid for FIVE DAYS STRAIGHT starting tomorrow evening? Not working! The smart brain is no longer in charge!
I am occasionally amazed that I made it through college, much less grad school, because - as terrifying as this is to contemplate - my impulse control actually used to be worse, and by worse I mean a lot worse, and when you combine that with my focus problems, which also used to be worse... well. The only explanation is that I really did love what I was doing and mostly wanted to be doing it.
Whereas I hate grading. I like pretty much everything else about teaching, including responding to student work, because my students are generally delightful and their work is pretty interesting; but for all that I joke about being mean and judgmental professionally and for money, I am not a big fan of grades, and even less a fan of having to justify grades, which is of course the tendency when commenting on written work.
And even if I minded grading a good deal less than I do? Right at this moment, I'd still rather be vidding.
In conclusion, ARGH.