You guys. I have a problem.
Okay. Look. I already have two vids with clips in the timeline, and as of last week I've ripped all of BtVS and Gilmore Girls to my new vidding drive so that I can start a VividCon vid for each of those shows. I got smacked upside the head by a Friday Night Lights vidsong a few weeks ago; I keep waiting for my brain to realize that the song isn't going to work, but so far it's sticking. After watching the end of The Wire this weekend, my Wire vidsong (which I've had for a while) has been pounding on the inside of my head with renewed vigor. And - and! - this morning on my way in to work I was listening to a song that's been stuck in my head for weeks now and realized that it wants to be a Farscape vid - a Farscape vid that is very different from the three perfectly good Farscape vid ideas I already have (not to mention the extant vid that I still want to revise).
I am no stranger to getting blindsided by vidsongs ("Window of Opportunity," "New Frontier," "Nothing New," "People Get Ready"), but usually when I get blindsided with this much force the new idea sort of pushes everything else off to one side. I mean, I always have a big backlog of vid ideas that I still genuinely want to make but for whatever reason I'm not feeling inspired to work on right at the moment (which is where I've been with my BtVS vid ideas for years now), but this? This is like a three four seven-car pile-up in my brain. I mean, even if I postpone working on the two vids that are already started, that leaves five.
Honestly, I can barely think and chew gum at the same time. I know that one of my goals for myself for this year was to be working on two or three vids at a time, and I still think that's a reasonable thing to attempt, but there is no way I can multitask on five vids.
I'm trying to calm down and be rational about this. The VVC vids need to take priority; that much is pretty clear to me. I think my FNL idea would benefit from some S2 source, so that one's out for now. I can't make the vids for Farscape or The Wire until I've rewatched the shows, and while rewatching The Wire from the beginning is reeeeally tempting right now, I'm already rewatching BtVS, so no.
But, see, I get that far and my Wonderfalls and Slings & Arrows vid ideas, which have been on active simmer for months now, reassert themselves, and the bad part of my brain points out that those shows are really short! And maybe I can't tackle Farscape or The Wire now, but surely I could do a shorter show! Right?
::headdesk::
And the real problem is that having all these ideas at once is keeping me from focusing. Usually I get an idea, I say "hmm, that could work," I stick it in the "potential vids" playlist and let the idea marinate for... well, these days it's usually for months, not to say years. And I'm fine with that! I have the song! I made some notes! I'm not going to forget anything! I'll get to it later!
Not this time, apparently. Even knowing that I really should be working on the BtVS and GG vids - and it's not a hardship! I am really excited about both of these vids! - I sit down at the computer to vid and... end up spending an hour tweaking the audio for the Wire vidsong. It's not that I want to work on this vid instead of the others; I know how to handle that, which is to throw up my hands and say "Okay, brain! You got it! We'll work on this vid, and never mind that we've been promising lapillus a cheerful Premieres vid for two years now!" [ETA: Which is how I ended up with "Nothing New" as a Premieres vid last year. Whatever else that vid might be, cheerful it ain't.] No, the problem is that I want to work on all of these vids, as witnessed by the fact that when I capitulated and stood up to go get the Wire S1 DVDs, I literally didn't make it out of the room before I had a specific clip idea for the GG vid.
::headdesk::
And - I don't know what it says about me that I am now planning weary bittersweet ultimately hopeful ensemble vids for both Firefly and Farscape. [ETA: Come to think of it, the Friday Night Lights vid falls into this category too.] I mean, except that I think there should be more weary bittersweet ultimately hopeful ensemble vids in the world. [Especially, apparently, for shows that start with F.] ::whistles::
In conclusion, I need a sabbatical from the rest of my life so I can vid for the next six months.
I am no stranger to getting blindsided by vidsongs ("Window of Opportunity," "New Frontier," "Nothing New," "People Get Ready"), but usually when I get blindsided with this much force the new idea sort of pushes everything else off to one side. I mean, I always have a big backlog of vid ideas that I still genuinely want to make but for whatever reason I'm not feeling inspired to work on right at the moment (which is where I've been with my BtVS vid ideas for years now), but this? This is like a three four seven-car pile-up in my brain. I mean, even if I postpone working on the two vids that are already started, that leaves five.
Honestly, I can barely think and chew gum at the same time. I know that one of my goals for myself for this year was to be working on two or three vids at a time, and I still think that's a reasonable thing to attempt, but there is no way I can multitask on five vids.
I'm trying to calm down and be rational about this. The VVC vids need to take priority; that much is pretty clear to me. I think my FNL idea would benefit from some S2 source, so that one's out for now. I can't make the vids for Farscape or The Wire until I've rewatched the shows, and while rewatching The Wire from the beginning is reeeeally tempting right now, I'm already rewatching BtVS, so no.
But, see, I get that far and my Wonderfalls and Slings & Arrows vid ideas, which have been on active simmer for months now, reassert themselves, and the bad part of my brain points out that those shows are really short! And maybe I can't tackle Farscape or The Wire now, but surely I could do a shorter show! Right?
::headdesk::
And the real problem is that having all these ideas at once is keeping me from focusing. Usually I get an idea, I say "hmm, that could work," I stick it in the "potential vids" playlist and let the idea marinate for... well, these days it's usually for months, not to say years. And I'm fine with that! I have the song! I made some notes! I'm not going to forget anything! I'll get to it later!
Not this time, apparently. Even knowing that I really should be working on the BtVS and GG vids - and it's not a hardship! I am really excited about both of these vids! - I sit down at the computer to vid and... end up spending an hour tweaking the audio for the Wire vidsong. It's not that I want to work on this vid instead of the others; I know how to handle that, which is to throw up my hands and say "Okay, brain! You got it! We'll work on this vid, and never mind that we've been promising lapillus a cheerful Premieres vid for two years now!" [ETA: Which is how I ended up with "Nothing New" as a Premieres vid last year. Whatever else that vid might be, cheerful it ain't.] No, the problem is that I want to work on all of these vids, as witnessed by the fact that when I capitulated and stood up to go get the Wire S1 DVDs, I literally didn't make it out of the room before I had a specific clip idea for the GG vid.
::headdesk::
And - I don't know what it says about me that I am now planning weary bittersweet ultimately hopeful ensemble vids for both Firefly and Farscape. [ETA: Come to think of it, the Friday Night Lights vid falls into this category too.] I mean, except that I think there should be more weary bittersweet ultimately hopeful ensemble vids in the world. [Especially, apparently, for shows that start with F.] ::whistles::
In conclusion, I need a sabbatical from the rest of my life so I can vid for the next six months.