one down...
I've finished one of the two vids I wanted to get done for VividCon. I am pleased with it. I won't be posting it until after the con, but it's done for now.
Now I just have to convert it to MPEG-2, upload it, trim and archive the project file and associated clips, clean all extraneous crap off my hard drive, and go for broke on the second vid, the one that has me so excited/scared I can hardly stand it.
I want so badly to get this one right and I don't know whether I can. I'm confident about many elements of the vid on a tech level, a frame-by-frame level, even within individual sections of the song; but there are some large issues of concept and content that I'm still struggling with: some intentions I'm not sure how to express, some ideas I don't know how to represent visually.
One of the reasons I know I like vidding is that I like this feeling of being out of my depth when vidding. I feel out of my depth all the time, about all sorts of things, and usually it's awful, but there are times when it's exhilarating - notably teaching, but also vidding. The best vids I've made, the ones I'm proudest of, are the ones where I felt like this. This feeling is how I know I'm learning, how I know I'm not making the same vid all over again.
Still: scary.
Trying to break it down, take it one task at a time. Trying not to worry about time. Trying to not worry, to just do. I am so in love with this song, with this source, with this idea; I keep telling myself that if I can manage to convey even a small part of that feeling it'll be enough.
It's just that I want to do a lot more.
Now I just have to convert it to MPEG-2, upload it, trim and archive the project file and associated clips, clean all extraneous crap off my hard drive, and go for broke on the second vid, the one that has me so excited/scared I can hardly stand it.
I want so badly to get this one right and I don't know whether I can. I'm confident about many elements of the vid on a tech level, a frame-by-frame level, even within individual sections of the song; but there are some large issues of concept and content that I'm still struggling with: some intentions I'm not sure how to express, some ideas I don't know how to represent visually.
One of the reasons I know I like vidding is that I like this feeling of being out of my depth when vidding. I feel out of my depth all the time, about all sorts of things, and usually it's awful, but there are times when it's exhilarating - notably teaching, but also vidding. The best vids I've made, the ones I'm proudest of, are the ones where I felt like this. This feeling is how I know I'm learning, how I know I'm not making the same vid all over again.
Still: scary.
Trying to break it down, take it one task at a time. Trying not to worry about time. Trying to not worry, to just do. I am so in love with this song, with this source, with this idea; I keep telling myself that if I can manage to convey even a small part of that feeling it'll be enough.
It's just that I want to do a lot more.