im back. but it's not likely to be a permanent thing..
hi there.
wow.
okay.
so life pretty much sucks right now, but I guess that all depends on how empty my glass really is..which is pretty damn (place adjective involving liqued substance here) deprived..
Im not making any quick decisions, just sort of waiting life out in a sense. Trying to save up some money for better things. My parental situation has yet to improve, but my mom did buy a plasma TV which could be an indicator of her realllly truly planning on purchasing a living space in the near future. I want to move in with her but then again, I hope to go away to college soon. Or do I? I don't know. I just don't know much of anything right now, I'm kind of waiting and hoping. Even praying a little bit...
I made a list of people I need to buy Xmas gifts for a bit ago...harsh reality check..I don't have very many friends. On the positive side, less money to spend.
So I went to Disneyland a couple weeks ago with Yasi and some other people. It was a good time, made me want to move to SoCal. Also made me realize that Pollock Pines is not my calling. Nor is anywhere in its viscinity.
As far as other things go, I feel like I'm wasting too much time and investing too much feeling into Christian. Harsh reality check #2 occured last night at roughly 2:00 AM. "It kind of makes me uncomfortable when you cuddle with Tawnia in front of me", "Well.." (rolls eyes) "sorry...". He seemed so happy when I came back from LA..everything was well, so i thought. Whatever, no phone calls will be made to him until finals are over. And maybe for even longer. He's such a distraction and sooo not worth it.
how pathetic I am.
wow.
okay.
so life pretty much sucks right now, but I guess that all depends on how empty my glass really is..which is pretty damn (place adjective involving liqued substance here) deprived..
Im not making any quick decisions, just sort of waiting life out in a sense. Trying to save up some money for better things. My parental situation has yet to improve, but my mom did buy a plasma TV which could be an indicator of her realllly truly planning on purchasing a living space in the near future. I want to move in with her but then again, I hope to go away to college soon. Or do I? I don't know. I just don't know much of anything right now, I'm kind of waiting and hoping. Even praying a little bit...
I made a list of people I need to buy Xmas gifts for a bit ago...harsh reality check..I don't have very many friends. On the positive side, less money to spend.
So I went to Disneyland a couple weeks ago with Yasi and some other people. It was a good time, made me want to move to SoCal. Also made me realize that Pollock Pines is not my calling. Nor is anywhere in its viscinity.
As far as other things go, I feel like I'm wasting too much time and investing too much feeling into Christian. Harsh reality check #2 occured last night at roughly 2:00 AM. "It kind of makes me uncomfortable when you cuddle with Tawnia in front of me", "Well.." (rolls eyes) "sorry...". He seemed so happy when I came back from LA..everything was well, so i thought. Whatever, no phone calls will be made to him until finals are over. And maybe for even longer. He's such a distraction and sooo not worth it.
how pathetic I am.