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life has been a journey. these past 2 years alot has happened ; alot of people lost one of the sweetest happiest girls in the world [ Jess ♥ ] , i lost my dog of about 12 years [ Tazzy baby ] , boyfriend , ex-boyfriends , bestfriends , etc. thats all life is , a journey. this is mine && i can't even keep track of it. this summer has been amazing so far because i have one of the greatest bestfriends i could ever ask for. Elise Corsale , i love you girl ♥ through everything she has been there && i really don't know where i would be without her around for the past 12 years. she is the only person i can say is my friend. she is real && i love that about her.
a year ago this day , i was with nick :/ && when i think about it , it scares me. what would life be like if we were still together? if he was still living with me? would i be happy? honestly yes. when i was with him i was happy no matter how or why we fought. but today , i could say i wouldn't have been because i see how happy i am now. that makes me think , is there better? am i going to look at this relationship if it ends && say i wouldn't be happy with mikeyy? i don't know.
me && mikeyy ; 6 months tomorrow. am i happy about it? if i see him i will be. i wish he put the same amount of effort in as i did. if he still asked me today , i would still give him the world but he doesn't. he seems to be too busy for me , && it's been like this for a while now. he leaves me for 2 weeks to go to PA then comes back && we barely spend time together. do you think it's sad that out of 6 months , he has never been to my house? i do.
i have been talking to Mike from Freehold alot on the computer lately. he's one of mikeyy's boys more then mine but i talk to him. we were talking about relationships , && thats what got me to here. he is probably one of the sweetest guys out there who are still tough && not a pussy. he is really chill though.
i wish i could be like my sister. she is such a good person && i know she is happy. she has a man who is her perfect match waiting for her in cali. which is where she is moving in less then a month. [ im going to miss her more then ever ♥ ] i see how much they still talk every night on the phone for hours wishing that the day they see eachother is the next. im jealous. i want that!
it was my brother's birthday on the 7th [ Happy Birthday ♥ ] he's getting old && so am i. i don't want to ever grow up. i'm scared of being alone when i get older. we only have a year left till college comes up. we are ruined after that starts. new friends come in && old out. i see my brother && his friends , they are happy. but they changed.
going to take a shower to hang out with my bestfriend.
i'll write more often
a year ago this day , i was with nick :/ && when i think about it , it scares me. what would life be like if we were still together? if he was still living with me? would i be happy? honestly yes. when i was with him i was happy no matter how or why we fought. but today , i could say i wouldn't have been because i see how happy i am now. that makes me think , is there better? am i going to look at this relationship if it ends && say i wouldn't be happy with mikeyy? i don't know.
me && mikeyy ; 6 months tomorrow. am i happy about it? if i see him i will be. i wish he put the same amount of effort in as i did. if he still asked me today , i would still give him the world but he doesn't. he seems to be too busy for me , && it's been like this for a while now. he leaves me for 2 weeks to go to PA then comes back && we barely spend time together. do you think it's sad that out of 6 months , he has never been to my house? i do.
i have been talking to Mike from Freehold alot on the computer lately. he's one of mikeyy's boys more then mine but i talk to him. we were talking about relationships , && thats what got me to here. he is probably one of the sweetest guys out there who are still tough && not a pussy. he is really chill though.
i wish i could be like my sister. she is such a good person && i know she is happy. she has a man who is her perfect match waiting for her in cali. which is where she is moving in less then a month. [ im going to miss her more then ever ♥ ] i see how much they still talk every night on the phone for hours wishing that the day they see eachother is the next. im jealous. i want that!
it was my brother's birthday on the 7th [ Happy Birthday ♥ ] he's getting old && so am i. i don't want to ever grow up. i'm scared of being alone when i get older. we only have a year left till college comes up. we are ruined after that starts. new friends come in && old out. i see my brother && his friends , they are happy. but they changed.
going to take a shower to hang out with my bestfriend.
i'll write more often