heal the wound
to you,
im really sorry things have to end this way. i know that it is very sudden but it is something i had to do.
it's for your own good and mine too.
you may have lost me but that doesnt mean that life's not worth anymore. life have to go on. there is so many one can look for in life. don't make yourself miserable just because of a immature girl like me.
i'm only 21. i'm furthering my studies. and i still want to enjoy life. there is so much more i haven do or try. i don't want to give up the best of life for a temporary happiness. i know you have made plans and everything but we only plan, He decide whether to grant it or not. sadly, sometimes things don't go the way we want it to be.
God is not cruel. He knows better. He don't do something that makes one hate Him. and we have no reason to hate Him either. He gave us choices to make in life. we must make sure that we make the correct choice. not for the present but also for the future. we have to think of the future. how and who we are right now are because of the choices we make yesterday. and the choice i make is permanent. once im in it, i cant go back. and i want to take back all the promises coz i know i cant fulfill them.
it's best u give up on me coz no one is on your side. theres no point fighting alone. nobody wants this. not even me. not anymore.
i love myself. i want a bright future. and i love my parents more than anything else. i don't want to disappoint them. they have brought me up as a proper young adult, who have been providing me and my siblings in any way they can to make sure that i get the best of everything whether it is education, food, clothes and everything else. i was brought up and taught to respect elders, that is why i don't lie. i'm a bad liar. that's why i told you not to lie anything to me also. coz now i seems to know the truth of all the lies u told me. a friendship has to be built based on honesty. maybe i fall for you for the lies u told me of you which is not your true self. so i don't know who you really are.
you're a great guy. i'm sure u will find someone better who is of your age and everything else.
i want to thank you for all the flowers (whether it's a bouquet or a stalk), thanks for all the breakfast, lunch & dinner, thanks for fetching me here to everywhere and from anywhere to home safely. thanks for all the morning and goodnight sms-es, all the phone calls and for all your care and concern. i'm sure you can do the same thing u did for me and show the same affection for that new (lucky) lady in your life.
i don't blame you if you want to hate me.
but theres some things i need u to do:
don't wait for me anymore. move on. life is short. take care of your health.
pls dun send me the vase of roses this september, or bouquet of flowers at my door on my birthday, valentine's day or any special occassion.
and don't look for me anymore for i'm no longer here.
& u're no piece of shit. pls don't think of yourself like that. cheer up. life is more than just about a girl.
goodbye.