shyte time.

[herblackbox]

somethings at home have come up and yet again im living with my sister. im starting school in june. ill be taking two classes...one math and one chemistry which im super nervous about. im more or a right brain person ( i think its the right side) my brain works better with literature, music, and art. im not sure if on gonna be moving out, or moving back in with my mom. But for these two months before school i really need to make some life changes. my old manager is finally coming back to starbucks so FINALLY everyone will get the hours they deserve. i went from working 35-40 hours to 20 to 25...i have bills people!! if i do move out that means ill have to pay rent plus other shit and im not sure if i can handle having two jobs and school, people do it all the time. i feel like i cant really count on starbucks right now...things are so up in the air and they need to come down!! ( i just had a bush moment hehe)but then again maybe this will be a wake up call for my mom. i dont want to live with her the rest of my life, but it would be so helpful if i could live at home rent free...pay my personal bills and just get finish with school. i feel like im being tested, and im preparing myself for the worse. even though im having this problems it know it could be so worse. so so very worse. i guess i should always think that in times like this. funny thing is when crape like this happens certain people go in and out of your life. for example i got a phone call last night from my ex mike. i havent spoken with him in about ehhh 3 weeks? i was strong and didnt give in to call him. i thank my friends for there words of advice. who knows whats up with that, ill i know is right now...i dont need any boyfriend in my life right now.
xxx.
tommorow night im seeing sheep on drugs with the karilyn, sula, and vickey. i cant wait to get out all my freakness. pheww.