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Wow, it's been awhile since I've updated the old LJ. I haven't been updating due to a lack of events, thoughts, or feelings in my life- quite the opposite. Too much crap went down all at once, and to even consider writing about any aspect of it was overwhelming.
No one person knows everything I've been going through recently (mostly due to the fact that I hate to burden people with my petty problems and crazy emotions), but it's suffice to say that it wasn't a high point in my life. Not in the least.
But, after having felt weakened and beaten down, I can honestly say that I feel content. And it's such a beautiful feeling. I look forward to the next day and have hope for the future, neither of which I've been able to say for a few months now. I full heartedly believe that I can better myself and become the person I want to be, as opposed to only a few weeks ago, when I felt trapped in my current patterns and self. I feels like a breath of fresh air after being suffocated for so long by old, stale self-pity and hopelessness.
So, I'm feeling awesome right now. And it's only going to get better, with the weekend beginning and knowing that I'll get to spend it with someone who makes me so happy. :)
"I've got nothing to do today but smile"
No one person knows everything I've been going through recently (mostly due to the fact that I hate to burden people with my petty problems and crazy emotions), but it's suffice to say that it wasn't a high point in my life. Not in the least.
But, after having felt weakened and beaten down, I can honestly say that I feel content. And it's such a beautiful feeling. I look forward to the next day and have hope for the future, neither of which I've been able to say for a few months now. I full heartedly believe that I can better myself and become the person I want to be, as opposed to only a few weeks ago, when I felt trapped in my current patterns and self. I feels like a breath of fresh air after being suffocated for so long by old, stale self-pity and hopelessness.
So, I'm feeling awesome right now. And it's only going to get better, with the weekend beginning and knowing that I'll get to spend it with someone who makes me so happy. :)
"I've got nothing to do today but smile"