New Entry; The voice in the machine
I have never seen Carsis so
I hope I did the right thing
That thing was evil. Part of me wants to take it and throw it in the river, smash it, find a spanner and take it apart so that it can never be sounded again. That may even be the right thing to do.
... but instead, it's at the bottom of my pack, wrapped in my spare clothes so that even if the button is accidentally pressed it won't be heard.
We should have killed him. I wanted so badly to believe that I could control my darker urges back then. We should have killed him.
Or I should have left. When he ambushed us I should have known and I should have left to keep Carsis safe. When Indarus saw his face and sent his lackeys after him to get to me, I should have left. Ether I'm weak But I was selfish and I loved him too much to leave and now this--it's my fault. Miss Sellinda is blind because of me, people are dead because of me, and Carsis is... I don't know. I can only hope that he recovers in time.
How can I ever look any of the Harbingers in the eye again, when I brought this down on their heads.
I hope I did the right thing
That thing was evil. Part of me wants to take it and throw it in the river, smash it, find a spanner and take it apart so that it can never be sounded again. That may even be the right thing to do.
... but instead, it's at the bottom of my pack, wrapped in my spare clothes so that even if the button is accidentally pressed it won't be heard.
We should have killed him. I wanted so badly to believe that I could control my darker urges back then. We should have killed him.
Or I should have left. When he ambushed us I should have known and I should have left to keep Carsis safe. When Indarus saw his face and sent his lackeys after him to get to me, I should have left. Ether I'm weak But I was selfish and I loved him too much to leave and now this--it's my fault. Miss Sellinda is blind because of me, people are dead because of me, and Carsis is... I don't know. I can only hope that he recovers in time.
How can I ever look any of the Harbingers in the eye again, when I brought this down on their heads.