Smile in the Dark Day
Wow, so here I am. I have almost dropped off the face of the Earth. Maybe that is exactly what I’m trying to accomplish. I’ve been gone for too long to even feel like I still belong. And waves of hysterical depression hit me. Its funny, before I’ve been depressed. Now I am actively holing myself up. I used to feel on top of everything...Now I have $7.58 to my name. That’s ok, the whole money never bothered me much anyway, so Kerry and I were shafted way more money than we could handle by or ex-roommate.
My phone will be disconnected soon.
Wendy and I are tried. Tested. And at the pinnacle of my wasted self, my studio crashes... My harddrive is gone and so is my music. My recent songs goofy and serious. The good song2 is gone. My symphony in A minor is gone. Its sounds like someone is jack hammering my hard drive.
Where am I?
I’m in the jungle. But really in Van Meter now. I have an apartment in the ground, now. Its dark, cold, and it puts me away from people for awhile. I’m really starting to feel myself collapse, and it doesn’t hurt a damn bit.
But today is happy.
If want, you can still try my cell phone at 360-3580, but if its disconnected, call Wendy and leave a message with her.
My phone will be disconnected soon.
Wendy and I are tried. Tested. And at the pinnacle of my wasted self, my studio crashes... My harddrive is gone and so is my music. My recent songs goofy and serious. The good song2 is gone. My symphony in A minor is gone. Its sounds like someone is jack hammering my hard drive.
Where am I?
I’m in the jungle. But really in Van Meter now. I have an apartment in the ground, now. Its dark, cold, and it puts me away from people for awhile. I’m really starting to feel myself collapse, and it doesn’t hurt a damn bit.
But today is happy.
If want, you can still try my cell phone at 360-3580, but if its disconnected, call Wendy and leave a message with her.