#4: Gender Identity relative to Sexual Orientation?
I have been thinking about gender identity and how it fits in with sexual orientation a lot recently as I have been questioning both- feeling male (nothing new) and feeling an orientation shift.
This may seem a bit complex, I hope it's easy to follow. This is just a personal thing but it may be interesting.
It is not very surprising that most Female-to-Males are attracted to women because most men are attracted to women. I, on the other hand, identify as predominantly gay, insofar as I consider myself male. However, as I find myself becoming more open to a gender transition, I have been feeling more attracted to people of the female gender. I have always been somewhat attracted to women but more in a manner of general physique; I would not think of or seek the attention of a female in a sexual manner, though I admired "cute" or "hot" women as though I had such an interest. I have a bit of a theory on this.
Assume that I was born with a natural inclination towards females. This theory is based mostly around this idea.
Say I was born with the attraction to girls. However, I am female-bodied and male-minded. This has caused me over the 18 years I have been alive to have a very strong disinclination toward female bodies. I hate that I have one and this loathing transfers onto other women, numbing my attraction toward them. Meanwhile, my mind is subconsciously yearning for a male physique, leading me to have a very strong attraction to male bodies. This is while I am UNAWARE of any manner of transgender status.
Upon becoming aware of it, emotional stress against female body is reduced. This leads me to feeling more open to the female gender because I no longer have such a strong negative stigma about them.
Thoughts, opinions, theories?
This may seem a bit complex, I hope it's easy to follow. This is just a personal thing but it may be interesting.
It is not very surprising that most Female-to-Males are attracted to women because most men are attracted to women. I, on the other hand, identify as predominantly gay, insofar as I consider myself male. However, as I find myself becoming more open to a gender transition, I have been feeling more attracted to people of the female gender. I have always been somewhat attracted to women but more in a manner of general physique; I would not think of or seek the attention of a female in a sexual manner, though I admired "cute" or "hot" women as though I had such an interest. I have a bit of a theory on this.
Assume that I was born with a natural inclination towards females. This theory is based mostly around this idea.
Say I was born with the attraction to girls. However, I am female-bodied and male-minded. This has caused me over the 18 years I have been alive to have a very strong disinclination toward female bodies. I hate that I have one and this loathing transfers onto other women, numbing my attraction toward them. Meanwhile, my mind is subconsciously yearning for a male physique, leading me to have a very strong attraction to male bodies. This is while I am UNAWARE of any manner of transgender status.
Upon becoming aware of it, emotional stress against female body is reduced. This leads me to feeling more open to the female gender because I no longer have such a strong negative stigma about them.
Thoughts, opinions, theories?