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I just got back home alittle while ago. I had to go to my grandma's for my brothers and dads birthday party. It was boring. Em was suppose to go, and i begged for about 20 mins, and for once i didn't get my way. I was watching "Where the Heart is" and my aunt started yelling at me telling me to put some shit on, so i got up told her to get over herself and she's a douche and went into the basement. So tonight wasn't very great. My mom's pissed at my aunt, so i ruined the whole family get together...like always because i ruin everything. I fell asleep for about an hour or so. Then we left. Tomorrow i have to go to my aunt's and uncles for 7 birthdays (oh joy) and hopefully em is going. Becaise if she doesn't i'm gonna be bored with a bunch of little kids. Em and I went bowling today. It was fun i guess. I was "mouthing" off to my mom, and i guess i was being sarcastic a lot or something. So my mom and me went off for a while. Em was laughing at me, because when i get mad..i do something weird wirh my hands and my face. lol. Em and I spent the night at Chelsea's and Manda's Friday night. It was fun. Chels stayed after with me because i had detetion, and MIke was in there. So Mike and I were mosting passing notes, mkaing fun of eachother ect. Then i got off the buss at their house, hung out, Chels did my make-up, picked out clothes for me, and did my hair. We went to the movies, and saw Secret Window, which wasn't bad at all. Johnny Depp was lookin mighty fine. Anywho, after the movie we got 3 picture thinggys done in the photo booth thingger (if i get them, i'll share them with you) And after we got back at their house we took a lot more picture with the digital camara (which i will show, but some have to stay out...for certain reason lol *wink*) Amanda fell alseep watching Dazed and Confused, which by the way is the best movie...because Randall 'Pink' Floyd(i think it is) is extremly hot. Chels, Em and I were up talking, watching tv and Em fell asleep. Well no one falls asleep on me, so i woke Em up. And we stayed up till about 3:00 or so. Amdan said i was talking in my sleep. Heh. I woke up around 8:30 which is crazy but it's all good. Amanda's mom came into the room we were in, and we left the computer on and her mom happen to find porn. lol. Em and I tried to help Chels and Amanda clean the basement, but my dad came to pick us up. Pretty exciting huh.

I'm out of it, and i have so many mixed feelings right now. I got cramps, maybe that's part of it. But i've been like this for awhile now, and i hate it. Somethings wrong, somethings missing. I need something. I'm so lonely. Ugh, Fuck it. Later.<3