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A thought prior to my upcoming birthday:
As I grow older, my urge to die grows stronger. About seven or eight years ago, I decided that there was a small list of things I would like to do, and a few conditions that would be in place, and after all the conditions were met and the objectives accomplished, it would be time to shuck off this life like a set of unwashed clothes and go back to the business of simply not-being, the state I spent most of the universe's existence in. I am eager to get back to old habits, as it were.
I've been skivving on those goals, but if I may be permitted the hubris of a birthday resolution, I hereby resolve to get to work accomplishing those goals. Ideally, I would like to be in a state of absolute completion by age 50 (I have pushed this up over the years due to impatience, admittedly - my original desire was 65 or so), capable of simply waiting in good conscience for the last few conditions to be met before offing myself. This will mean that as of this birthday, my life will be (optimistically) half-over. I don't know how exactly I will commemorate getting over the hump, but I'm thinking perhaps of a radioactivity-themed party. I just need a venue, preferably one in Toronto. Torontonians are cordially invited to both suggest possible locations (bars preferred) and to attend once a final location has been decided on.
As I grow older, my urge to die grows stronger. About seven or eight years ago, I decided that there was a small list of things I would like to do, and a few conditions that would be in place, and after all the conditions were met and the objectives accomplished, it would be time to shuck off this life like a set of unwashed clothes and go back to the business of simply not-being, the state I spent most of the universe's existence in. I am eager to get back to old habits, as it were.
I've been skivving on those goals, but if I may be permitted the hubris of a birthday resolution, I hereby resolve to get to work accomplishing those goals. Ideally, I would like to be in a state of absolute completion by age 50 (I have pushed this up over the years due to impatience, admittedly - my original desire was 65 or so), capable of simply waiting in good conscience for the last few conditions to be met before offing myself. This will mean that as of this birthday, my life will be (optimistically) half-over. I don't know how exactly I will commemorate getting over the hump, but I'm thinking perhaps of a radioactivity-themed party. I just need a venue, preferably one in Toronto. Torontonians are cordially invited to both suggest possible locations (bars preferred) and to attend once a final location has been decided on.