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The show was good. Different from my previous concert experiences. It was in a federal concert hall, so everyone was just standing around. I sat restless through most of it, but I could still appreciate what was before me. It was strange, hearing these songs that have been so close and clear to me for a year, filtered through loudspeakers and the static of the crowd.
I talked to Chris about a lot of things on the way home, and saw how much of a couple year's worth of confusion hasn't really cleared itself up (and, at the same time, has). I really don't know, definitively, what I should do, other than continue to show the people I love that I love them. I can't say I'm ready to take a leading role in anyone's life right now. Those who have been wayward and wandering may continue to do so for the time being. I haven't loved anyone in a long time without it taking a lot out of me. That doesn't look to change any time soon, and I'm tired of that pain.
At the same time, I occasionally get as tired of being that lonely.
I talked to Chris about a lot of things on the way home, and saw how much of a couple year's worth of confusion hasn't really cleared itself up (and, at the same time, has). I really don't know, definitively, what I should do, other than continue to show the people I love that I love them. I can't say I'm ready to take a leading role in anyone's life right now. Those who have been wayward and wandering may continue to do so for the time being. I haven't loved anyone in a long time without it taking a lot out of me. That doesn't look to change any time soon, and I'm tired of that pain.
At the same time, I occasionally get as tired of being that lonely.