This has everything to do with very little.
On the busride home, staring out the window, mind blank, a voice suddenly sounded, distantly, just inside my ears. It was affectionate, playful... without thinking, I mouthed the word (zeekee) and a once cherished memory came back to me. Strange how these things come back to you, without warning. I haven't thought of that in over a year.
Fucked, fucked dreams. Most involved two very real and constantly opposing figures. The angry, almost violent character was the man I happened to be, while sleeping, sharing a bed with. Entirely platonic at this point, so don't think too far into that. The softer, protecting figure was, no surprise, Erik. Throughout all of my dreams, no matter the plot, I was always briefly running from the dark (vengeful anger) to the light (familiarity and love). Running scared as all hell.
(Before anyone jumps the gun, this guy doesn't pose an actual threat to me. He was the subject of a past entry that dealt with me realizing a distrust I had for someone, because of an anger and resent for everyone that had finally surfaced to full view, one I don't even want to touch on because of his nature and who it reminds me of)
I've been finding it harder to deal with my solitary status. Don't get me wrong, I'm (possibly too) comfortable with it.
I just...
Fucked, fucked dreams. Most involved two very real and constantly opposing figures. The angry, almost violent character was the man I happened to be, while sleeping, sharing a bed with. Entirely platonic at this point, so don't think too far into that. The softer, protecting figure was, no surprise, Erik. Throughout all of my dreams, no matter the plot, I was always briefly running from the dark (vengeful anger) to the light (familiarity and love). Running scared as all hell.
(Before anyone jumps the gun, this guy doesn't pose an actual threat to me. He was the subject of a past entry that dealt with me realizing a distrust I had for someone, because of an anger and resent for everyone that had finally surfaced to full view, one I don't even want to touch on because of his nature and who it reminds me of)
I've been finding it harder to deal with my solitary status. Don't get me wrong, I'm (possibly too) comfortable with it.
I just...