I am alive and not in Bama for the evening
Well the condo was beatiful.We did find a pernmeant place to live though in Orange Beach called Beaver Creek,this house is so pretty.I will miss waking up at 6:30 everymoring with him and kissing me to tell me to go back to bed.I will miss the nights we left the window open and you wake up to the waves crashing right out.That was the one of the most peaceful sounds on earth.I miss my home but the beach isn't as bad as i thought it would be.In the new house we live in now we are about ten mintues from the beach.But tonight i am in New Orleans actually by my self.I even snuck in at 2 am and my dad doesn't even know i was coming down this weekend,i just never really got around to calling.He wont mind though.I am came for Kristin's (mallory's niece who i love) for her surpise sixtenth birthday.Sad part was today was Mallory's birthday and Kristin got all the attention and i felt bad for her.I know she turned 20 and people don't make as big of a deal with 20 as they do sixteen but i still felt for her you know?But sad part is i did come to New Orleans alone.David and Chad stayed behind to do there thing and me mine.I told them while i was down here i was going to see if my dad would drive back with me and take the rest of my things so i can finally have my room together and not be living our my Little Ceasear boxes.Plus that way i dont have to wait for us to take another trip to New Orleans and i know if we came down i wouldn't get to do but i reallyed wanted anyways.But that's ok giving me time away from the boys is good.I actually for once tonight didn't think about either one of them,even Chad.I almost forgotten about them until i gotten home.Not in a bad way but it's giving me the time i needed to catch my breath.But i did notice something that my dad hadn't thrown away yet and that was my dried sunflowers,my favorite flower.These flowers hold a very specail and very sad story in that kind of hopeless romantic kind of way and i didn't feel sad looking at them instead tonight i smiled,I love him and i guess that's all there is to it.For once im realizing that he loves me too................