I can't make this on my own
My mom told me her and my dad are going back to there house tommorw.They are driving from my grandma's house early in the morning to Harvey.Since i have very little with me and what i do own is mostly under water in Chalmette im asking her to get some of my things still at there house and to make sure binx,my kitty is ok.She will be mailing me my requested items here to me in Houston.Everybody with me keeps saying they aren't leaving Houston,I hate it here.I understand that i have nothing to go back to but the westbank is still standing and i can go back to my moms and they are more then welcome.I understand we have all been talking about starting over for sometime but it hurts so bad cause i feel like i didn't get my proper goodbye.I've done the Texas thing before,i moved out to Mckinney(outside of Dallas) for about five days with my ex boyfriend.I loved him but hated it there cause it wasn't my home.I understand that i am nineteen and i can make my own decisions and deep down inside it is my pyschotic mother i don't want to leave due to the fact im afarid how she will react but im so torn.I keep pretty much dropping hints and almost down right pleading with everybody to go back.But i realize more and more everyday,none is going back.Everybody is staying in the places they are now.It felt so refreshing to see that Jeremy wants to go home.Finally somebody so i don't feel so much like an idiot.I know at some point in my life i was going to have to say goodbye cause i have dreams of Quantico,in Virgina but i didn't think now was that time.But im slowly coming to terms with it.My mom told me they will be allowing people to come back as early as October 1st.Im giving thought to maybe going to get the rest of my unharmed things in her safe house and saying goodbye to the only life i have ever really known.I just wasn't ready for this.I always swore i would never live in Texas,i guess i was wrong.........