don't let this die, we may never fall in love again.
i cry myself to sleep every night because i live by myself in a 900 square foot box of an apartment. and no one ever comes to visit me in my little box. most nights, when it's not too cold, i'll sit outside on my balcony and wish on the first star i see that maybe someone will come knock on my door and keep me company. not my creepy downstairs neighbor, of course, who leaves me bottles of shampoo and knocks on my door late at night inquiring what political party i'm registered to vote under.
i know i complain about this a lot, but living by myself is the most terrible thing. i realize that i am lucky to have my own apartment and have my rent paid for, but i didn't think that it would ever be like this. i moved into this apartment with a person who was one of my best friends at the time, and now that i kicked her out i am so lonely in my empty little apartment all by my empty little self.
the worst thing about every day is going home. that's why i stay at my mom's house until ridiculous hours of the morning, because i don't want to be alone. that is where i am right now. in my ex room in my ex house.
on another note, loving someone when they do not want to be loved...sucks. but whatever. at least when you start growing up it doesn't hurt so bad anymore.
man, i turn 21 in 4 days. time to grow up. but i don't want to.
i know i complain about this a lot, but living by myself is the most terrible thing. i realize that i am lucky to have my own apartment and have my rent paid for, but i didn't think that it would ever be like this. i moved into this apartment with a person who was one of my best friends at the time, and now that i kicked her out i am so lonely in my empty little apartment all by my empty little self.
the worst thing about every day is going home. that's why i stay at my mom's house until ridiculous hours of the morning, because i don't want to be alone. that is where i am right now. in my ex room in my ex house.
on another note, loving someone when they do not want to be loved...sucks. but whatever. at least when you start growing up it doesn't hurt so bad anymore.
man, i turn 21 in 4 days. time to grow up. but i don't want to.