we're both wasted. we're not going anywhere like this.
it is thanksgiving day and i almost did something amazing at 5:30 this morning. but of course i stopped myself. i am afraid to let myself live because life also means death. so i live in my little box of an apartment and come out only when i absolutely have to. i envy you people who can go on with your lives and not think about the things that i have to think about day in and day out. it is november 23rd and i am wearing a short sleeved shirt. shouldn't it be cold outside? i want to go to idaho and see my long lost love. but i'm afraid it would be too cold for me there. i wish i had moved to huntington beach this semester. that was the plan. but i'm not the type of person who sticks to plans or schedules or deadlines.
i need to stop falling in love with the people i make up in my head. even though they don't exist, they still make me miserable.
i need to stop falling in love with the people i make up in my head. even though they don't exist, they still make me miserable.