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BEHOLD THE WORLD'S WORST ACCIDENT!
i am the girl anachronism.
maybe i can convince my mom to buy me this cd.
maybe i could do alot of things.
i told my case manager my whole little scenario and sobbed and all that crap. anuja AND nalani was there so i had people to talk to.
did i mention that i called alex last night?
yea...
he seems so dettached from everything i say. i have never been honest with anyone as to how i feel about him. and i was last night .. directly to him. i don't even know what i wanted him to say. but i just don't know what he feels. i know it never can or will be the same. i just want some answers.
i think i search for answers to things too much. and it's always to things that are probably better left unknown, or maybe unable to be figured out. maybe it's because i depend on people. i think i should try to learn to depend on myself.
it's
not
the
way
i'm
meant
to
be.
it's just the way the operation made me.
i am the girl anachronism.
maybe i can convince my mom to buy me this cd.
maybe i could do alot of things.
i told my case manager my whole little scenario and sobbed and all that crap. anuja AND nalani was there so i had people to talk to.
did i mention that i called alex last night?
yea...
he seems so dettached from everything i say. i have never been honest with anyone as to how i feel about him. and i was last night .. directly to him. i don't even know what i wanted him to say. but i just don't know what he feels. i know it never can or will be the same. i just want some answers.
i think i search for answers to things too much. and it's always to things that are probably better left unknown, or maybe unable to be figured out. maybe it's because i depend on people. i think i should try to learn to depend on myself.
it's
not
the
way
i'm
meant
to
be.
it's just the way the operation made me.