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So yeah I've been up and down within an ongoing slump these past few months. Just seems all my present and future concerns become more and more entropified by the day. Life is not as polarized a thing as fiction makes it out to be. Nothing seems simple to me anymore. I greet every passing moment with listlessness. I feel as if everything needs to change but none of it can be changed. I feel there are no long term satisfactory changes possible at this point. I used to feel so confident about everything, used to have faith in myself and my abilities and most importantly, my ability to realize my dreams. Now I am just as unsure about the dreams as the ability to achieve them.